Chillie's story

Episode #120: Short Post!

2012-01-11T19:10:00.007+08:00

Just wanna write this to remind myself what I did. LOL.
After it took such a long time to prepare a stack of postcards, I'm done with them! and they're ready to be delivered! :D

to 14 ppl, I pray as I write this post, that the postcards will be safely delivered to your hands, and you'll be blessed!
In Jesus name I pray, Amen!

I'm such a bad person to keep in touch with, especially you rarely see me online on fb, skype nowadays. And with my canggih phone that can't be classified as a smartphone.... so no viber, no whatsapp, no etc.....

but! postcards, emails, fb messages, drop by wall posts, I definitely cherish all that and will reply ya. ;)

lol,
li yan.

Episode #119: Holiday Break~~!!!

2011-12-17T05:28:00.004+08:00

LOVE them (it's chrome) hope they'll last till I'm working in hospital ;)

Really "syok" when lecturer finish her sentence with "Merry Christmas and happy holidays, we'll see you next year". Last day of class is my last paper for test. Though I didn't pass both 2 tests, but to pass one and fail the other were part of my expected plan :) so phew~~ luckily I didn't failed both. lol... well, the consequences is I'm gonna face heavy load of exams in January 2012. tsk tsk tsk...

Forget about studies, tak taat (me) will be escaping the cold weather in Poland to Spain for 10 days!!! yeeehah!!

HAVE A GREAT WEEK AHEAD

AND

=MERRY CHRISTMAS=

syok sendiri "weird" photo

Episode #118: Christmas Party Door Gifts!!

2011-12-11T04:03:00.006+08:00

Spent half a day at home to prepare my first time ever Christmas Party Door Gifts.
It's really sad that I couldn't make it for the party of my home group church. So I decided to do at least door gifts for 50 people and 10 children. =)

Really a huge thank you to Jane, my adorable housemate for helping me with ideas and just to tie a ribbon!! I'm so bad at it. haha. Also to Abba Father, Jesus, Holy Spirit for helping me with finishing it.

the cutest!! are the 5 socks with also surprised presents inside for the kids.
the rest are mix of candies and polish chocolates.

Hope people will be blessed with the best I've made.

*take deep breath~~ Fuh..... next task -> to have last minute study and preparation for upcoming exams. It'll be tough!*

Episode #117: Touching PV, love GReeeeN ;)

2011-12-10T22:47:00.000+08:00

p/s: HAPPY 22th BIRTHDAY SHARLYNE KEE ! =) I remembered.

Episode #116: Death

2011-12-09T05:03:00.007+08:00

Questions to ponder in med psychology class:
1) How do you feel when you think about death?
2) When you are with terminal-ill patient, what do you think about or how do you feel?
3) What's the most difficult for you when you are with terminal-ill patient?

my reply that day:

When I think of death,

I feel the sense of relief because it's finish.
We have finish running our race, and according to my belief, we'll meet God face to face whether we go heaven or hell.
'cause if I'm having a terminal disease, I still have the little time left to live. So I can make the last effort to fulfill the task and responsibilities, sharing love and spending time with loved ones. Basically leaving a living legacy?
and if let's say I'm a patient who died on the spot, then of course I wouldn't have the time to think about what can be done. So living day by day as much as we can to the fullest or last days will be better.

When I'm with terminal ill patient,

I feel the need to cheer person up and give them a fighting spirit?

What's difficult for me when I'm with terminal ill patient is,

it's difficult to see patient's suffering and still giving hope/ showing empathy.

I know there're better examples of answers definitely much more compassionate than mine. Some people might think I'm really naive and optimistic about death, maybe... It's always easy to say than done.

...

Today, I got news from friends that a schoolmate, one year younger than me have passed away yesterday. He's just 20. I didn't know who he was when I saw his name, till I find him through facebook. Such a bright face and brilliant student. He's studying in US and was just planning to return home -Malaysia in a weeks time.

Who knew that before going home he was in the car accident.
Next thing, "R.I.P" and heart aching wall posts from friends,
and later dozens of wall posts became a memorial wall.

As optimistic as I am previously about death,
when I knew about this news, my heart aches. I feel sad because he ended his life much earlier than everyone else. Then I feel relieved because he is a Christ believer and I know he will be in heaven.

for now, the naive me thinks "I would rather have the few days to live to send my last words to my loved ones," than to leave this earth in 3 seconds.

the reality is, we don't know when and how we will die.
So... should we be afraid of death?

all I've got to say is Love your Life and Live it Loud.
Come what may, but
Leave an amazing testimony, a legacy about YOU.
What influence and inspiration you've given to people around you.

with love,

chill-k

Episode #115: About studies?

2011-11-20T02:00:00.001+08:00

we are still humans.

Microbiology - A subject that I still don't have chemistry with.

couldn't grasp what the lecturer is trying to teach us.

yup =/ 要加油！多下一点功夫！

some photos of my beginning of 3rd year =)

microbiology lab class

team works :)

2 days in Neonatology Department

To be a doctor, there's still a long way to go.....lot's of work, reading, practices need to be done.

I might not be the best student and best material to be a doctor.I know that.
However, no one can bring you down and stop you from chasing your goals, not unless you have given up on yourself.

I watch this video a while ago. Inspiring.

I'm working on that. Bouncing back when I fall.

=) 加油！

Episode #114: Lost in Time

2011-11-19T18:32:00.002+08:00

Been busy with classes and exams.
Just being present in classes and lectures makes 1/2 of my day.
1/4 for preparation for the next day + makaning + 1 hr drama + catch up with housemates
1/4 for sleeping.

and the cycles repeat again and again with exam day slot in too.

Going back to the gym actually makes me break this meaningless cycle.
I actually feel more alive.

end of this post. ;p

Episode #113: Lullaby

2011-10-23T18:24:00.002+08:00

It's another music post again ;)

Having exam coming friday and following wednesday.
Till then,

Have a great week!

Lift up your eyes,
and you will see that the sun is still rising everyday,
So don't be discouraged with every problem and things around you,
be as faithful and still like the sun.

hehe... random eh?

Episode #112: Follow You

2011-10-18T16:34:00.003+08:00

Episode #111: Time For Live Music?

2011-10-15T03:11:00.003+08:00

I can't deny that I love korean music.
but I'm not a crazy fan of a specific band either. It's just music is a part of way I live my life.

9 February 2012 thursday
Music Bank K-Pop Festival in Paris.
featuring Girl’s Generation (SNSD), 2PM, BEAST, SHINee, 4Minute, T-Ara, U-Kiss and SISTAR!
(more info, click here)

I still remember how excited to know when my friend went for Super Junior Show and
I missed it as I'm in Poland. 2nd time I missed the concert is SM Town concert in Paris which I have my final exam dates nearby at that time.

This is my chance, it's within my holidays.
Adrenaline rush and gonna treat myself for once in a lifetime for music. =) =)

Should I go? Or Should I channel the money for charity purposes? Or should I go not to Paris, a place I've already visited but to other country?

I have asked x amount of people. Sigh...

10 more days left and the ticketing booth will be opened.
350zl for a ticket! middle row seats around the stadium.

oh man... never had such a crazy idea in my life.

Will pray about this and may I make the best decision!

SM Town concert in Paris, click here

Episode #110: You Lift Me Up with Your Love

2011-10-09T21:55:00.008+08:00

The Afters - Lift Me Up

You lift me up with Your love

You lift me up with Your love
You lift me up with Your love
You lift me up

Waiting for the sunrise
Waiting for the day
Waiting for a sign
That I’m where you want me to be

You know my heart is heavy
And the hurt is deep
But when I feel like giving up
You’re reminding me
That we all fall down sometimes
But when I hit the ground

You lift me up when I am weak
Your arms wrap around me
Your love catches me so I’m letting go
You lift me up when I can’t see
Your heart is all that I need
Your love carries me so I’m letting go

You lift me up with Your love
You lift me up with Your love
You lift me up with Your love
You lift me up

I know I’m not perfect
I know I make mistakes
I know that I have let you down
But You love me the same

And when I’m surrounded
When I lose my way
When I’m crying out and falling down
You are here to

Lift me up when I am weak
Your arms wrap around me
Your love catches me so I’m letting go
You lift me up when I can’t see
Your heart is all that I need
Your love carries me so I’m letting go

I can see the dawn is breaking
I am feeling overtaken with your love
With your love
I don’t know what I can offer
In this moment I surrender to Your love
To Your love

You lift me up when I am weak
Your arms wrap around me
Your love catches me so I’m letting go

I can see the dawn is breaking
I am feeling overtaken with Your love

You lift me up with Your love
You lift me up with Your love
You lift me up with Your love
You lift me up

p/s: lyrics credit to BassAngelMLS
Thank You!

Episode #109: A New Season!

2011-10-09T05:17:00.007+08:00

I'm back to blogging. =)
Yes I'm still alive. Just want to share a new season of my life as I'm now on my 3rd yr of medical school in Poland. God is faithful and His love is secure for us always. Praise God!

my messy study table.

I spend 2 days to wash the photos and 4 hours to figure out this photo collage. Don't really want to spoil the wall, so I used the translucent wrapping paper behind the photos. ;) There're 30 photos in total in this collage. Can't believe it eh?

Just wanna remind myself that I've met these amazing bunch of friends and people. We'll never know how much we have been blessed unless we learn to count even the smallest things we are grateful for =)

Next, my free time schedule. haha...
what a good plan for now huh...

I'm still trying to kick start for studying.
It's soooo easy to fall asleep or lose focus if we are not determined to finish what we have plan.

more news and updates soon,
sorry for my english and grammar. better stories and writings soon.
chao!

~chill-k

Episode #108: Chill-laxing

2011-04-13T02:30:00.000+08:00

Dear visitors of this moulded blog,

Thank you for droping by chilling/ stalking/ caring/ boring/ spaming.

It's been long since I updated my blog with good, exciting, funny things.
I always post links from youtube of great inspiring musics and videos.
Today, I'll post up 2 videos of me playing/ chill-laxing with my guitar =)
My voice maybe terrible, but it's chill-laxing la.. chill+ relax. Plus, I didn't say I have angelic voice anyway =p

Hope the music bless you in a special way.

Dare You To Move guitar Cover - Switchfoot
(can't upload file exceed 100MB, so i cut off some parts at the end)

Be My Everything Cover - Tim Hughes

I thank God I passed my physiology exam today. I didn't ask for more, pass is the best news for me. Keeping my debt for retake paper to one, so it's good ;)
Hope that I can really go back as planned this year!!!

so till the next post, cheer up people ;)

Episode #107: April Fool's Insomia =p

2011-04-01T09:13:00.006+08:00

3am now, 4 more hours to go and I shall rush to take the Physiology seminar test and 4 hours of Physiology.

Pretty mix of worries, questions and plannings in my mind that I couldn't even put them into words to pray about, needless to think about blogging them in details.

Then comes a moment when I remember a song that was in HEARTBEAT album by YC.
comes back to my passion, my first love. I don't have the mp3 music. I don't have the lyrics, below is all written based on my memory. I first heard the songs when I was still 13. =) but because of the countless times I listen to the cd and these songs, I still remembered these 2. =)

You Are
Jesus, my best friend and my Savior
Risen One,
I cannot help but look to you in awe

I would go on and on about You
and still not have enough to say

You are the water that satisfies
You are the king who reign on high
You are the love of my life
when You made,
that ultimate sacrifice

my body, soul and spirit cry out to You
'coz I am so dependent on You
without You I'm worthless
with You, I am priceless
Oh my Jesus, my Lord , my everything.

So Help Me Lord
Too many obstacles to face,
I cannot handle on my own
-----missing words------

So I'm asking more of You
grant me patience, strength
and courage too

Help me Lord to go Your way
Help me not to go astray
'Coz this world is a crazy place
But You have made it safe
For me

When the time comes for me
to stand up for You
I know You be by my side
On my own I never make it,
But with You Lord, anything is possible

playing softly on my bed.
try to strum at first but awaken someone ;)
so turn into plucking.. haha

glad i can remember the music.

4am now. Time to bed. =)

Episode #106: Journal

2011-02-18T05:06:00.006+08:00

I want to journal down my prayer and thoughts in my journal today, just to realize my previous notes have almost similar thoughts and feelings. What's more real that confirms my constant concern and heart's desire are when I flipped back to a prayer written down black and white. It's the exact same emotions and words that I have right now, only I was praying for God to lead me for the winter semester and now I'm getting started with my spring semester.

wow... It's not a bad progress for me to be struggling over the same questions and thoughts. Rather it confirms that I need to be strong and keep learning to put my anger into passion, my complaints into actions, thoughts into prayers.

I'm sad over the fact that we never know our friends from our enemies until the ice breaks. I despise racism and use of religion for politics or vice versa. I hated the corruption and evil of human's manipulation , half truths that brainwash the innocent minds. I despised people who serve themselves rather than having a heart of compassion and serve people who are in need in the medical field. I do not believe that love and friendship could not go across different beliefs, background, cultures, nor races. It's a choice that we always have to make.

But, above all....
I go face down and cry out for people to stop hiding and be ignorant to the fact that we need to stand up for what is right and rebuke when there is wrong. Evil triumph when good men do nothing.

Every night I will pray for my actions to be justified before Jesus if I'm really living for myself, hiding behind pillars and not standing at the front to prepare for the battle. Battle to be faithful in what we are doing and righteous...

May this be your prayer too.

For this reason I kneel before the Father, from whom every family in heaven and on earth derives its name. I pray that out of his glorious riches he may strengthen you with power through his Spirit in your inner being, so that Christ may dwell in your hearts through faith. And I pray that you, being rooted and established in love, may have power, together with all the Lord’s holy people, to grasp how wide and long and high and deep is the love of Christ, and to know this love that surpasses knowledge—that you may be filled to the measure of all the fullness of God.

Now to him who is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine, according to his power that is at work within us, to him be glory in the church and in Christ Jesus throughout all generations, for ever and ever! Amen.

- Ephesians 3:14-21

Episode #105: Your Love is Everything

2011-02-11T06:05:00.004+08:00

Jesus Culture - Your Love Is Everything

When I am dry and thirsty Lord,
And I'm crying out for more,
I know I can trust in your love.
In the darkness in the night
When I'm starving for the light
I know I can trust in Your love

You keep no records of my sin,
and you don't remember all my shame.

Your love heals every disease
Your love fulfills my every need
Your love is everything to me
Your love is everything

I will not forget
I wont forget your promises
I will not forget
I wont forget your love.

I will not forget
I wont forget nothing is impossible
I will not forget
I wont forget your love.

Our records of sins are wipe clean when we turn to Jesus and seek for forgiveness, for His love by crucifying on the cross has already erased them. Never repeat the same mistakes you did, do not follow the past ways that you know are not worthy. The Holy Spirit lives in you will guide you to discern the right and wrong. Listen to the right voice. My sheep listen to my voice; I know them, and they follow me. (John 10:27)

try play it on guitar

original chords
Jayesslee version =)

Episode #104: Random scribbles

2011-02-07T04:52:00.006+08:00

Without me counting day by day, I'm now 1 year old of my 2nd part of my life (as much as I don't want to compartmentalize things, it just happened). I kind of divided my life by 20s...
I couldn't believe 2011 is the beginning of what I always wonder when I'm still in high school, "What will I be doing when I'm 21? still playing basketball after studies? dress more girlish and prettier?....etc"

So here's my start: I'm studying my 2nd year medicine in Warsaw, Poland. Still a believer of Christ, and a T-shirt and pants girl.

I'm grateful and thank God with all my heart for:
- providing me a scholarship to study medicine.
I remember how I worry over financial problems and circumstances around me. The only scholarship that I applied for. If I didn't get it, I'm already had in mind to study in Malaysia. Knowing there are so many people deserves this opportunity, I thank God for providence.

- putting influential people in different phase of my life.
many individuals that I learn to follow their examples, or rather they are my charger. At times when I'm down, they became my support. Their presence alone have encourage me to move on. A small note... A warm hug... A good team work... A precious time chatting... A joke ... a cup of drink...A simple catch up on skype or facebook. I truly thank you for being in my life once upon a time.

- bringing me to Poland
Studying overseas was NEVER a thought in my mind. Being in Europe??? it's a nonsense ;)
guess I'm such a low esteem girl who don't dare to dream big. Problably that's why I'm bad in linguistics and explaining what Malaysia's politics, history, culture, statistics are...

- teaching me how to love others just like how Jesus love us all
this sounds like another statement that people would ignore because it's religious? or it's just makes you uncomfortable? or it's just an understatement for you? whatever it is, it is TRUTH for me. (John 3:16) and (Philippians 2:1-11) are one of the encouragements and teachings that I kept it in my heart.

- salvation for my sister and friends
although I'm not the person who water the seeds nor plant them, but I thank God that you gave the sunlight to them. Now they are growing and waiting for the season to reap the good fruit.

------------there's more but I think I'm here for now-------------

random scribbles:

I do not worship music,
but it became a source of output and expression to my emotions and feelings.
Love, hate, anger, praising God, fun... I just love it.
I just realised that I usually listen to musics that are uplifting instead of pitying you or saddens you the time. As much as I listen to emo songs, I'm always pick songs that have the spirit of fighting back/ motivates/ being in difficult situation yet not giving up... beautiful music/ puts u in the mood of thinking/ etc... haha I dunno how to describe..

I'm worried sometimes that my eardrum will once day stop vibrating and I'll be deaf. LOL...

No, I can't compose music, but I can listen to yours.
I love acoustic/ contemporary, K-ballad and Kpop musics.

I won't be blogging very often as I have promised last time. Simply because I'm not a writer. I have problems with expressing my thoughts into words, most of the time, I'm battling with my questions and answers in my mind or generally conversation with myself or with God through prayer. It's hard for me to express what's hidden in my heart. But you can always skype, fb message or email me if you want to keep in touch with me =)

Moreover, I'm a bad reader, I don't read a lot of books. Be it fiction or non-fiction ones.. I just lost focus easily when reading or fall asleep. So I don't think with such level of wisdom, u can get any benefit from reading my blog. On the left side of my blog posts there are really awesome blogs that worth to read them. So give it a try.

A German Joke I heard in english,
A young student went to the fortune teller to ask about his future.
The fortune teller replied, "Oh Boy, you are going to be successful, healthy and there will be no sick people around you in the future."
The student is dissapointed with the answer. "It can't be. How am I going to be a doctor then?"

well... he is a medical student ^^

Episode #103: My Wish

2010-11-19T07:45:00.002+08:00

My Wish by Rascal Flatts

I hope that the days come easy and the moments pass slow,
And each road leads you where you want to go,
And if you're faced with a choice, and you have to choose,
I hope you choose the one that means the most to you.
And if one door opens to another door closed,
I hope you keep on walkin' till you find the window,
If it's cold outside, show the world the warmth of your smile,

But more than anything, more than anything,
My wish, for you, is that this life becomes all that you want it to,
Your dreams stay big, and your worries stay small,
You never need to carry more than you can hold,
And while you're out there getting where you're getting to,
I hope you know somebody loves you, and wants the same things too,
Yeah, this, is my wish.

I hope you never look back, but ya never forget,
All the ones who love you, in the place you left,
I hope you always forgive, and you never regret,
And you help somebody every chance you get,
Oh, you find God's grace, in every mistake,
And you always give more than you take.

But more than anything, yeah, and more than anything,
My wish, for you, is that this life becomes all that you want it to,
Your dreams stay big, and your worries stay small,
You never need to carry more than you can hold,
And while you're out there getting where you're getting to,
I hope you know somebody loves you, and wants the same things too,
Yeah, this, is my wish.

My wish, for you, is that this life becomes all that you want it to,
Your dreams stay big, and your worries stay small,
You never need to carry more than you can hold,
And while you're out there getting where you're getting to,
I hope you know somebody loves you, and wants the same things too,
Yeah, this, is my wish.

This is my wish
I hope you know somebody loves you
May all your dreams stay big

@credit to www.azlyrics.com

Old song, yet beautiful.
hope you are blessed by listening to the music,
if you've never heard it before.

Episode #102: Cornerstone

2010-11-02T06:02:00.009+08:00

Inspired by a simple story,

The Wise and Foolish Builders

²⁴ “Therefore everyone who hears these words of mine and puts them into practice is like a wise man who built his house on the rock. ²⁵ The rain came down, the streams rose, and the winds blew and beat against that house; yet it did not fall, because it had its foundation on the rock. ²⁶ But everyone who hears these words of mine and does not put them into practice is like a foolish man who built his house on sand. ²⁷ The rain came down, the streams rose, and the winds blew and beat against that house, and it fell with a great crash.”

~ Matthew 7:24-27 (NIV)

The crowd were amazed when Jesus teaching this as one who has authority, and not like other teachers of law. It makes me check and reflect on my life,
"What is the foundation of my life?"
Is it Jesus, God's word, myself, friends, career, family, etc? Do I really practice what I believe in and building my foundation on a rock? since what is in our hearts will be shown through our actions and values just like "Garbage in, garbage out."

For those of us who believe in Christ,
Jesus is not only our rock, but also our cornerstone. This word was mentioned a couple of times in OT and NT of the Bible. When I first heard about the word "cornerstone", I literally think of two walls of a building connected by the cornerstone (the "tiang") LOL...

Little did I know that cornerstone = keystone/ foundation stone. It is the first stone that is placed in the construction of a foundation, very important as it will be use as a reference point for all other stones used for this contruction of the foundation. Thus, it will set the whole position of the building. A friend of mine illustrates that the Old Testament and New Testament are the 2 walls, Jesus is the cornerstone that joins both ends.

Paul (Ephesians 2:19-22), Peter (1 Peter 2:6-8) and Jesus (Matthew 21:42-46) shared about cornerstone, giving the same idea which are mentioned in the Old Testament.

¹⁹ Now, therefore, you are no longer strangers and foreigners, but fellow citizens with the saints and members of the household of God, ²⁰ having been built on the foundation of the apostles and prophets, Jesus Christ Himself being the chief cornerstone, ²¹ in whom the whole building, being fitted together, grows into a holy temple in the Lord, ²² in whom you also are being built together for a dwelling place of God in the Spirit.

~ Ephesians 2:19-22 (NKJV)

⁶ For in Scripture it says:

“See, I lay a stone in Zion,
a chosen and precious cornerstone,
and the one who trusts in him
will never be put to shame.”^a]">[a]

⁷ Now to you who believe, this stone is precious. But to those who do not believe,

“The stone the builders rejected
has become the cornerstone,”^b]">[b]

⁸ and,

“A stone that causes people to stumble
and a rock that makes them fall.”^c]">[c]

They stumble because they disobey the message—which is also what they were destined for.

~ 1 Peter 2:6-8

Ref. to Old Testament
a. Isaiah 28:16
b. Psalm 118:22
c. Isaiah 8:14

After reading and discussions with home group church friends, I kept thinking and asking God
"Lord, what if I try hard building my foundation in You, Jesus,
but people around me don't see the cornerstone that I depend on,
instead it's just a merely stones on the roadside to be step over?"

"Could it be because I didn't work hard enough to show Your love and share about You? Could it be that I'm not being a better example of Christian?"

I raised my voice and asked everyone in the room to know what's their view.
One shared, that it's impossible that when you build your foundation and people doesn't notice it, unless they don't understand and know about it. Also, it is not our authority to determine which path and foundation they will choose, but it's their personal choice.

I admit. I forgot the most important thing that made me love Jesus more than any other gods.
I don't need to work hard to earn God's love. It's by God's grace that my sins are forgiven and I am saved. Since I don't own nor I can earn more, people's salvation and their decision to follow which beliefs are not my responsibility to bear. I can only share and tell how great and loving my God is, how Jesus changed my life. At the end of the day, it's up to both the person and God one-to-one business. Only God can changes one's heart and have the real answer to their questions, only the person himself/ herself can decide to follow which truth.

"What changes do I have to make in our lives to reflect Jesus is the rock, the foundation that I am building? "

p/s: photo taken at Zakopane 2010 by Przemek using Susan's camera and the half head gone chubby person is me. =)

¹ I love you, LORD, my strength.
² The LORD is my rock, my fortress and my deliverer;

my God is my rock, in whom I take refuge,
my shield and the horn (symbolized strength) of my salvation, my stronghold.

-Psalms 18:1-2 (NIV)

Episode #101: What's on my mind?

2010-10-25T02:42:00.005+08:00

The only difference that I want to change in the video?
It's that I didn't come from a christian family background.
I'm struggling with disappointments lately, on people, friends, but above all myself...
Because U can't change people to think and act like you. To treat others equally just like yourself.

I always hold on to the thought and hope that maybe I can change people's hearts. Maybe through showing and being the example, I can really show God's love and Christ-likeness to people around me. I forgot, that God is the one in control and able to do miracles, not me. I tried with my own efforts, only the patience and passion burnt off so fast. In the end, I'm being consumed instead.

I came across this video (I hope it will question you and inspire you) when I was searching for mv "By your side" by tenth avenue north.
It sounds really harsh with God doesn't need us. But it is true.
God can pass you by and always find others to do the task....if you don't want to.
The chain of blessings to the other people around you however... definitely will be cut off/ affected/passes by as well..

And even if you do share God's word and tell people about Jesus and truth. It's not you who can save people, but through Holy Spirit who lives in you and through you. It's up to God's timing and the individual's decision whether he/she wants to.

so do not doubt your testimony and don't be afraid to tell people about your God and faith! sharing about your understanding about God should be alive and open. I know it's hard and sometimes you just need to believe that God can use you in the most unexpected way.

I watched "to save a life" again lately.
I couldn't stop thinking about Jake Taylor who made a pause in his life and started to reach out to people and friends around him....when he was going through different issues in his life, to put it simply, he wasn't not in a good mood (or rather right mood) to help the friend, his friend showed up and needs him. And Jake's response?? He screwed up the chance, and said something wrong.
well of course people can make mistakes, we are human... etc.. For Jake, he is lucky to make up to his mistake.

my thoughts may not be connected with one after another.
and as usual, my english grammar sucks..
oh well... that's exactly what I am going through.... and what's on my mind.

From now on, I will keep to the habit of blogging back every week. =)

God bless you.

Episode #100: Autumn Comes Baking Starts

2010-10-15T21:32:00.008+08:00

Autumn started since September,

love the colour of leaves changing,
sun and clear blue sky,
beautiful clouds.

----BAKLAVA----

first time baking.. well thankfully I'm not baking alone
but have shasha, housemate to help me.
quality control =)

Baklava, very easy to make, only.. it requires a lot of time and patience to make them.
made of 10-15 layers of filo dough pastry with butter, and 2 mid layers with mix nuts.
soaked with honey syrup.. SWEET STUFF... !!
I decided to make it since the Kebab shop sells a slice of it for 5-7 zl ( RM 5.50 -7.70)
I wanna eat more, so bake la.. lol..

video the weird flying poses by the lady is not funny at all...
recipe I use less honey, replace with more sugar. =)

----Baked Pineapple Casserole----

Got a list of recipes from a very influential friend, Kaylin ;)
good christmas party's food recipe..
2nd time baking!!
easy and tasty.. u should try it. =)

Ingredients:

1 medium can pineapple chunks, reserve juice

1 medium can crushed pineapple

(3 Tbs of reserved juice)

1/2 c sugar

3 Tbs flour

1 c shredded cheddar cheese (or mixed with Gouda)

1/3 c melted butter or margarine (approx 80g)

3/4 c Ritz cracker crumbs (add as much u need to cover the top, its tasty ;p)

1) Drain pineapple, reserving juices.

2) Combine sugar and flour and stir in 3 tablespoons of juice.

3) Add cheese and pineapple and mix well.

4) Pour into a 1-quart baking dish.

5) Combine melted butter and crumbs.

6) Sprinkle over casserole.

7) Bake at 350 F (177 C) for 30 minutes or until bubbly.

I start to "want to" treat myself better by spending more time preparing and cooking a good meal for myself. Not only you having quality control on food, you are not wasting food. Well I always combine food or fried rice and stuff.. ended up half or quarter portion thrown away since it tasted awful =p Now, I can share with people food that I make. It brings joy to people too.
=)

Episode #99: July - August Update 2

2010-08-19T20:13:00.016+08:00

14/07/2010 -16/07/2010 - Kid's Day Camp at Praga
helping out for 3 days in the one week Kid's Day Camp in Praga.
Praga, one of the bad areas in Warsaw where pick pockets are common... well I think there's more to it that I don't know about. To me it's dangerous to be there alone at night.

so with a group of Polish and American friends, we work with the community Kid's club and have a week of kid's camp. These precious children play on streets. Some enjoy throwing rocks over rooftops, spiting at each other, break glass bottles by throwing to the brick walls. Bullying is rather like a daily thing, whether mild or serious ones...

Story telling session

group cheer and singing ;)

crafts and drawings in cards

Since we definitely need to converse in Polish with them, we have Polish friends as translators to the american friends =) Broke into 3 groups : Sports, Story telling and Crafts.

The most amazing miracle that God have shown us, last 2 days of kids' day camp. Day before the last day of camp, there's 3-4 of older youths came for kids' camp. Some of them have drank some alcohol before coming, started to gain attention and power by going to different groups of activities we had and "playing" with younger ones by snatching one's handbag, joking and laughing loudly..etc.. By the end of the camp, every kid will line up for snack packs with fruits and sweets in it. So the guys wanted to have some too, lining up for that too. Well, we were a bit frank and did not want to submit to their "authority" or cheating, so we decided not to give them any and stop them. They were smart enough to find some younger boys to line up again and get for them. Well some succeeded, and started showing off.. =)

So we don't want to cause anything unnecessary to anyone, we packed all our things up asap and head back to put some of the our camp stuffs in the kid's club room. Kid's club room is a place where kids from this area will come and play, it's like their playground (which also means this is also the place where the older youth's hanging around place). They followed us and wanted to cause a mess by trying to go in with us. Guys form our team trying to stop them from entering the door, pushed them not in purpose but for protection. They became furious, pushing and wanted to go in... but they can't. we locked the door from inside.. They left for a couple of minutes, not to give up, but to pick up metal pipes. Guys from our side manage to take that away from them. After our stuff have settled... we split into 2 groups, and started walking as fast as we can to the nearest shopping mall in 2 different directions.

They followed us into the mall. We finally managed to get rid of the whole thing when we looked as if we want to find security officer by talking to a guy who was working in one of the shops of the stall. (maybe it looks like we are calling for police? lol... no idea..) So some of us were in shocked, we didn't intend to cause trouble to the kids' club and our intention was to spread God's love and fellowship with them. Everyone was tired from the whole day ativities and the chasing.

Worried what would the last day be like with the threats to 2-3 guys of our group. The last day of camp plan? to invite parents of their children to come and have a great sausage grill session and fellowship =) I pray to God for protection and to give us wisdom in handling the situation tomorrow, to clear the misunderstanding and let God's unfailing love to change both sides.

We arrived early, with more people in our group. Cautious about our actions and how we plan the activities. We were 30minutes late by the time we walked there. I saw 20 or more kids already lining up for name registration, waiting for another fun kids' day camp! These kids are really active and hard to keep them oriented. But... to see them lining up and rejoiced when we were settling stuffs for camp, grilling tools set up and clean water supplies... I was overwhelmed and almost cried. =) the next climax of the story? the youths showed up. With one of the parent and an old woman who maybe a grandma or relative to them. Old woman rocks! Her hair dyed pink red if I remembered correctly, smokes, drinking a bit of alcohol when we were having the kids' day camp. ;) Hey guess what? She was chosen by God to settle the misunderstanding and tamed them. (Talking about higher authority? lol) I was not in the direct conversation, but got updated by friend. The guys apologized and said they were drunk, while on our side we apologized as well and offer some packs of gifts too. So we carried out our day camp as usual... only more parents were there to watch their kids having a great time. Grill session with the rocking grandma giving out the food when we are in line. I remember lining up behind the guys who apologized earlier. When she handed them the sausages and food, with their heads down they got the food and quickly walked away. She shouted some polish words, and then they were saying "thank you" while walking away quickly. =) well, I guess she was saying "hey! what should you say when you get them?!"

I think God is amazing that He can use anyone, regardless of who they are and what background they are from, anytime and anywhere is possible. When you read it, it might sounds dull.. well I'm bad in writing... but it's definitely another amazing story, small but significantly magnify God's greatness..

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3/08/2010 - 4/08/2010 voluntery work at Jewish cemetry
Learn a lot about the symbolism of different headstones. By the symbols/ drawings, you can know if the person is a charitable person/ a scholar/ a rabbi/ a Levite/ a woman. There weren't many people or Jews to clean and do maintance on the Jewish cemetery, to noted down the numbers and names of Jews who are buried here. All these work is so that Jewish survivors in different parts of the world can trace back their lost loved ones. Especially during the summer, some trees grown next to the headstones causes some cracks on them, some headstones even fall down. So this huge cemetry!! we only cleared out not even a third of the sectors in 2 days... sometimes, there'll be Polish army volunteer to do the cleaning work too.

It was my first time cleaning graves... scary at first and tiring all times, but later on, you know you are working for God. I'm blessed to know a Messianic Jew, who explain to me a lot about Judaism and his testimony. Messianic Jew believes that Jesus is the Messiah, but they don't called themselves Christians. They called themselves believers. Because of his decision, He was being disowned by his family and siblings. It's really extreme in Jewish family. For many years, his sibling sister did not keep in touch with him. Of course, he loved his family, but it's how Jewish family culture. To go that far to stand for what's truth and faith, I'm amazed.

Talking with him was really fun and interesting. He was a super hygienic clean freak who constantly squeeze a lot of sanitizer on his hands and things that people have touched before. haha... we had a lot of fun teasing and kept touching his stuffs.. =) also through him, I managed to watch a documentary interview with Jews who survived the Holocaust and WWII, Schindler's Factory and how they were being tortured and separate from their loved ones during war. I was so caught up listening to the whole hour when I was on the train to Krakow (a day trip visiting Auschwitz, Jewish synagogue, Schindler's factory museum).

I know that some of my friends, nation and generations hated Jews regardless of what religion and background they are in, I don't know why and what. A friend of mine answered me when I ask "so why people hated Jew?"..."well, I do believe it's a spiritual attack." which left me a question of is it true or false? Maybe I will learn some day, but God whom I believed in is LOVE, and I believe that sin is evil. It's not the people who are made in God's image are the one we hate, but the sinful desires. To know that Jesus the Son of God died on the cross to pay the price of sin, to lean our debts, I believe there will always be a miracle to change someone lives and heart. The only thing matters here that stops me is if I refuse to forgive and let go my hatred of that person. I know I struggle in it still.

so here come photos =) lol... looks like a moral project I did huh?

Jewish Orthodox visiting the graves of maybe their loved ones =)

Beautiful view in cemetery. Smoke from burning cut tree branches replaces the dry ice used at stage, natural sunlight replaces the stage lighting. Looked up after busy working, amazing view.

P/S: Thank you Kaylin for all the photos you have taken and shared with me. =)

⁹Let us not become weary in doing good,
for at the proper time we will reap a harvest
if we do not give up.
-Galatians 6:9 (NIV)

²³Whatever you do, work at it with all your heart,
as working for the Lord, not for men
-Colossians 3:23 (NIV)

⁴³"You have heard that it was said, 'Love your neighbor and hate your enemy.' ⁴⁴But I tell you: Love your enemies and pray for those who persecute you, ⁴⁵that you may be sons of your Father in heaven. He causes his sun to rise on the evil and the good, and sends rain on the righteous and the unrighteous. ⁴⁶If you love those who love you, what reward will you get? Are not even the tax collectors doing that? ⁴⁷And if you greet only your brothers, what are you doing more than others? Do not even pagans do that? ⁴⁸Be perfect, therefore, as your heavenly Father is perfect.
-Matthew 5:43-48 (NIV)

Episode #98: July Update part 1

2010-08-05T10:26:00.005+08:00

I know I need to write all this down before I forget and lazy to update about it.
So, how's summer in Poland?

28/07/2010 - 09/07/2010 : Rehabilitation Summer Practice

compulsory for every medical students in my uni, we have to work in hospital for 1 month. Depending on which year you are in, there are different aims and skills we have to learn. For me as 1st year student, I have to learn how to measure temperature, bp, changing IV drops and beds, feeding patients, etc... So we all begin our hospital hunting and choose any departments that we wish to work in. It's very hard to find a hospital or a department that is willing to teach you in City Center Warsaw.
Reason 1: you can't communicate well in Polish.
Reason 2: nurses can't teach you in english.
Reason 3: you are unlucky =).

6 of us ended up in rehabilitation which.... we are the first group of english division + med students to work with. Instead of learning what we suppose to learn, we kind of experience what physiotherapist's work is, and rehabilitation. =)
video 1
video 2

In the video = Full lift exercise. When we enter the room one day, I'm amazed by the whole thing. It's like transformer =) haha... so when we have like 10 minutes left to finish our work, we work together and based on what we observed earlier, we tried to remember as many details as we can.

Honestly I think it's a really good opportunity for me to start from this department.
2 weeks of standing beside technician or physiotherapist, talking to patients and learning different exercises, message techniques and posture. Sometimes boring...sometimes interesting..there are days you just stared on the clock, half-dead and couldn't wait to go home, but one thing I really learn from Asma, my ex-roommate here in Poland, your attitude changes how your day in rehabilitation work. Really...

First few days, I'm clueless of what to do. Want to help, but without any knowledge of what exercise is really needed for the patient. I just stood and watch. People will eventually looked scary to you and sometimes you are troubling their work. But once you break the ice by talking, asking people and imitate what patient is working on, the atmosphere around you will change. When working with Asma, she play and try out different stuffs in the rehab room, ask whatever questions that she has in mind. For me, I thought that I should focus on caring for each patient's needs and not fooling around in the room. But later, I realized we need to first learn, and experience before we can help. Physiotherapist amazed with our enthusiasm, then our everyday learning process will start with patient's problem, what exercise helps and what we can help.

2 words that comes really handy while working, "Czy bolly?" informal way of saying "is it painful?"
I learn how to start a conversation with patient and physiotherapists who looked scary here. =)
The good positive thing about this department is that you know patients are healing and improving. Majority of them are able to move around and live their life normally soon. It's not like ICU where 80% of patients can't talk, intubated, and with many wires attached to their bodies...

First thing I did, eye contact and smile. haha
next, ask them if they can speak english. If yes, even just a little, boom!! it's a bonus, start asking what happen to patient and injuries he/she has. If no, ask if its painful, and ask technician or physiotherapist what is patient's history.
If it's a fun day, I will do the exercise with the patient. Like passing a ball back and forth, helping patient with half lift (lifting half of your body for relaxation of muscles and helps lumbar / back pain).

July 1 is the most significant day for this summer practice.
Instead of stuck in different rooms working with different exercises or messages,
I went with a physiotherapist who works in wards of other departments in the hospital. She has work in most of the departments of the hospitals for 15 years. Very strong, experienced in handling patients, most importantly trustworthy for patients. Greet patient "Dzien dobry, Dzien dobry!" (good day, good day!). Then we help patients who have been on bed for a long time to change sleeping positions, simple exercises like inhale, exhale, rowing a boat style using the walking stick, etc.. Some patients who are able to move, we will help them to first stand and then go for a short walk. There's one old lady whom I walked her to the weighing balance. She used to weighed 72kg, but that time when I'm with her, she's 45kg. My heart felt a little tight when Pani Eva, physiotherapist told me in english.

Being a physiotherapist assistant... LOL.. U will observed that each of them are really firm and strong in handling patients. (duh... right? but when I look at how they move patient's hands and exercise bed patients, you will see the way the stand and support the patient are firm and solid.) They always stress on how we need to take care of our body posture when working with patients. How we stand and move that will not strain or injure our back muscles. =)

Last day of our work, we learn how ultrasound, polarized light, and electromagnetic field treatment works for small area injuries. Oh! I think I didn't mention that there's a swimming pool in the hospital for rehabilitation. =) Patients with lumbar injuries will exercise in the swimming pool. With water resistance but also with buoyancy, it's a really good treatment. U might wonder what kind of exercise they do. Holding a U-shape polystyrene (Pols called them makaron.. LOL) with your foot on the middle. Press it down against the wall. Swing it left and right with that exercise. Next is sitting on the makaron, in between you legs. like riding a bicycle, you paddle your feet. looks simple, but for me it looks exhausting and tiring.

some group photos will be uploaded later in september. Have problems with getting them from beloved friends who are in Malaysia now.
sorry for lousy description and grammar mistakes.
it's 5.37am now in Poland. So, I need to force myself to bed now.

God Bless.

Episode #97: 刹那 Setsuna by GReeeeN

2010-07-28T05:59:00.003+08:00

刹那
歌：GReeeeN 作詞：GReeeeN 作曲：GReeeeN

我们一定会绽放光芒找到活着的意义
不服输不干枯坚强地活着

即使在以泪洗面的每一天
太阳也是东升西落永不停息

以为在世上只有自己被抛弃其实世界今天也在变化
那都是微不足道的事情

被赶超的每一天流过的泪水找到活着的意义
一定有谁心怀希望活在现在
命运啊人生啊在今天这最后时刻
笑出来即使只有这样所有答案都在于自己

在看到痛苦的双眼里映出世界悲伤的色彩
眼泪盈眶为什么事到如今还不满足
看见挺起胸膛的自己
选择谎言缠身的自己
正确答案就在于自己
喜悦悲伤紧密相连的明天明天明天明天

悲伤的时候就哭到干涸
高兴的时候就笑到腹痛
难过的时候就感受风吹
直到展翅高飞的那天

我们一定会绽放光芒找到活着的意义
不服输不干枯坚强地活着

直到找到那天
深信自己一定会找到那天

中译来源页

theme song from VOICE, a japanese medical, mystery drama revolves around 5 medical students attend seminars in forensic medicine. Forensic pathologist become the voice over the dead, delivering the last message that the person wants to convey before death, finding the truth and solving the mystery.

thoughts that I have been thinking recently..
some people are living their lives; some are only existing.
are you living or you just exist in this world.
what are you going to do about it?
what are you going to do with your life?

Episode #96: To Save A Life

2010-07-26T23:05:00.004+08:00

This movie is a must watch for everyone. Inspiring and life changing movie.
It touches real issues happen in schools, youths, and church.

It's not just a Christian movie for Christians. It's about lives and how you are going to make a stand everyday. To stop, and think about people around you.

"To Save A Life displays the struggles and limitations of students both in and outside of the church walls in a way that I have not seen before. Also most Christian films are written as if to get those outside the church walls to take faith seriously. This one instead needs to be seen mainly by those inside the church walls who proclaim to live a certain way but instead are deceiving themselves." ~ Matt Mungle on To Save a Life Review from BloggerNewsNetwork

cheers.

Episode #95: New apartment

2010-07-18T02:13:00.008+08:00

Just moved to this new apartment 2 weeks ago. We found this apt through facebook!!
6 year med students advertised this apartment in our uni facebook group.

3 bedrooms, 1 kitchen, 2 toilets, 1 living room, 1 dinning room.
I decided to own the living room since it has the largest space!! Lmou..
It requires tremendous work to figure out the arrangement of furniture in the living room. I think I have rotate the 2 sofa beds for more than 4 times.

We went to IKEA to buy new beds, study tables and chairs ( lucky that the owner paid for all of them ;) ) Buying beds, study table and chairs from IKEA at one go in a foreign country was really crazy day!! 2 of us, me and Sasha had no idea how to pick our stuffs from the warehouse with all Polish computer and directions, but Thank GOD!! I asked one of the IKEA guy, "Czy pan mowic po angielsku? (Can you speak English?)" "A little.." and then the adventure of flying to different columns and rows of furniture in IKEA warehouse begun. I still remember the sweat was all over my back pushing 3 trolleys full with boxes of stuff. LOL... Paying 4 figures with a card was really my first time XD. (I'm glad those money was claimed back form owner wei...)

Last Monday, I have a date with 3 guys, first meeting with owner and IKEA guys. Satu very OLD, dua orang OLD.. and TALL!!! Lmou.. I was really worried if I can managed the meeting and new furniture moving in and assemble same day. 3 of my housemates went back to Malaysia already. Thank GOD.. again, the owner helped me in explaining where to put all of them in right orientation and places. The coolest thing is my owner is working in Brussels as opera theater assistant or chief director (sorry wasn't paying attention very well)!! So artistic wei~~ Oh, and one of the traditional polish culture for guys is letting girls first, and man next. There were a few things that we have to moved to the attic room. I want to help out since I'm so much more younger right? cheh2.. XD but he insisted he will take all of that. So supposedly I should hold the door for him to go forward, but I'm forced to go first instead... AWKWARD!! ;)

I know I didn't update any photo about my guitar in Poland.... So here you go finally...!!
Takamine EG 220C =)
I LOVE the resonance and light weight, sounds really good when plucking, strumming and sliding too much can be noisy though.

Just imagine the building is not there... XD

I just got my compact camera Nikon Coolpix S640, finally my first ever camera. Searching high and low for Sony Cybershot DMC-WX1, unfortunately out of stock in 2 totally different places of shopping malls. I think I captured all of these photos less than 30minutes... didn't take photos for a super long time, so some angles were bad. Let's call this round testing k. Hopefully I will improve.

I will be going for a hiking trip to Zakopane for a week!! will be back next friday. It's my 2nd time to Zakopane, 1st time was during winter last year (didn't blog about it yet.. hehe), this time I bet it will be a totally different sight!! especially now it's summer people!!! total 180 degree opposite!
Hopefully I will update my blog asap with photos.

till then.. take care guys, makan malaysian food for me.. please~~

The end..

Episode #94: A chat with God

2010-07-13T16:35:00.001+08:00

GOD IS CALLING

God : Hello. Did you call Me?

Me : Called You? No.

Who is this?

God : This is GOD.

I heard your prayers.

So I thought I will chat.

Me : I do pray.

Just makes me feel good.

I am actually busy now.

I am in the midst of something.

God : What are you busy at?

Ants are busy too.

Me : Don't know, but I can't find free time.

Life has become like rush hour all the time.

God : Sure.

Activity gets you busy.

But productivity gets you results.

Activity consumes time.

Productivity frees it.

Me : I understand, but I still can't figure out.

By the way, I was not expecting YOU would call.

God : Well, I wanted to resolve your fight for time.

Give you some clarity.

Me : Tell me, why has life become complicated now ?

God : Stop analyzing life. Just live it.

Analysis is what makes it complicated.

Me : Why are we then constantly unhappy ?

God : Your today is the tomorrow that you worried about yesterday.

You are worrying because you are analyzing.

Worrying has become your habit.

That's why you are not happy.

Me : But how can we not worry when there is so much uncertainty ?

God : Uncertainty is inevitable, but worrying is optional.

Me : But then, there is so much pain due to uncertainty. ..

God : Pain is inevitable, but suffering is optional.

Me : If suffering is optional, why do good people always suffer ?

God : Diamonds cannot be polished without friction.

Gold cannot be purified without fire.

Good people go through trials, but don't suffer.

With that experience their life becomes better,

not bitter.

Me : You mean to say such experience is useful ?

God : Yes.

In every term, Experience is a hard teacher.

She gives the test first and the lessons afterwards.

Me : But still, why should we go through such tests ?

Why can't we be free from problems ?

God : Problems are

P urposeful

R oadblocks

O ffering

B eneficial

L essons to

E nhance

M ental

S trength.

Inner strength comes from struggle and endurance,

not when you are free from problems.

Me : Frankly in the midst of so many problems,

we don't know where we are heading...

God : If you look outside you will not know where you are heading.

Look inside.

Looking outside, you dream.

Looking inside, you awaken.

Eyes provide sight.

Heart provides insight.

Me : Sometimes not succeeding fast seems to

hurt more than moving in the right direction.

What should I do ?

God : Success is a measure as decided by others.

Satisfaction is a measure as decided by you.

Knowing the road ahead is more satisfying

Than knowing you rode ahead.

You work with the compass.

Let others work with the clock.

Me : In tough times, how do you stay motivated ?

God : Always look at how far you have come rather

than how far you have to go.

Always count your blessings,

not what you are missing.

Me : What surprises you about people ?

God : When they suffer they ask, "why me?"

When they prosper, they never ask "Why me?"

Everyone wishes to have truth on their side,

but few want to be on the side of the truth.

Me : Sometimes I ask, who am I, why am I here.

I can't get the answer.

God : Seek not to find who you are,

but to determine who you want to be.

Stop looking for a purpose as to why you are here.

Create it.

Life is not a process of discovery,

but a process of creation.

Me : How can I get the best out of life ?

God : Face your past without regret.

Handle your present with confidence.

Prepare for the future without fear.

Me : One last question.

Sometimes I feel my prayers are not answered.

God : There are no unanswered prayers.

At times the answer is NO.

Me : Thank you for this wonderful chat.

I am so happy to start the New Day

with a new sense of inspiration.

God : Well!

Keep the faith and drop the fear.

Don't believe your doubts and doubt your beliefs.

Life is a mystery to solve, not a problem to resolve.

Trust Me. Live by faith and not by sight.

Life is wonderful if you know how to live.

received this email from a friend.

God bless.

⁵ Trust in the LORD with all your heart
and lean not on your own understanding;

⁶ in all your ways acknowledge him,
and he will make your paths straight.

~ Proverbs 3:5-6

Episode #93: End of 1st yr

2010-06-27T17:50:00.002+08:00

Glad I'm still alive after 1 year being in Poland
The length of time we stay at diff. place or country increases little by little as we became older.

thank God, I passed my Histology exam last Tuesday and Wednesday.
I was really shocked with my practical test. 10 microscopic slides, to pass 6. (If you get 7 slides correct, you will get 1 bonus point extra. 8 = 2 points, 9 = 3pt, 10=4pt). During the test, very nervous when I get a fresh microscopic slides and good microscope. LOL!! Totally different from the ones which you can borrow and practice back home. Normally stained purple colour in old specimen is pink in colour during exam. All I can do is based on my instincts, move the slides up, down, left and right, not missing any details and clues of what the specimen is. Being asked if I needed extra time from the examiner standing in front of me, "Yes, can I?". "Ok". Trying to erase pencil marks and fill the answers with pen. Started to panic.. haha.. Results? 4.

crazy.. stepping out from the exam hall, I can't even recall the answers I placed. For med friends, it is hypophysis, trachea, jejunum, stomach, heart, epididymis, parotid gland, non-hairy skin, spinal ganglion and oviduct. Easy? not during exam with new specimens..different sections taken.

After exams, started the rotting routine for 5 days. Friends were busy moving out from the dorms and summer practice in hospital to learn practical nursing skills. Tak Taat (me) will be starting on Monday, moving into a new apartment next Wednesday.

It's hard to find a hospital that can accept you for doing summer practice when you can't communicate in Polish, especially when you are in the capital of Poland, Warsaw. After being rejected by 3 hospitals and countless departments, 6 of us got rehabilitation. LOL.. will update ya when I start next week. Definitely won't be as exciting as being in surgery department where you can enter the OT , pediatrics department where you an take blood pressure of younger children, injecting insulin, glucose or morphine, changing beds and cleaning patient's poo poo.. but!! It'll be another experience in rehab. XD

I won't be coming back this july.
Staying in Poland till early September, after anatomy final MCQ retake.
Dates to be confirmed very soon :)
sorry to all my friends who will be leaving Malaysia to study abroad, and my CG leader Angel and Christian blessed couple's wedding. I will be officially MISSING YOU. ;)

Group 2 - Anatomy

Medical Chemistry

Latin

notice my hair before and after

Episode #92: Rascal Flatts - Why

2010-06-22T23:06:00.002+08:00

Rascal Flatts - Why

love the lyrics, it's really inspiring.
it's not a anyone can write song.
Enjoy..

Episode #91: TaeYang - Wedding dress

2010-06-16T00:06:00.007+08:00

Tae Yang - Wedding dress

for lyrics click here

*first time posting korean mv on my blog. I wanna share this mv. Sad song but nice mv. Enjoy! I'm not a fan of Big Bang btw.. =p

Episode #90: Sad to fail?

2010-06-12T16:12:00.010+08:00

*images taken by my uni anatomy website. copyrighted..

June 8 - Anatomy Finals - practical pins exam
June 9 - Anatomy Finals - MCQ exam

Practical Pin test, you have 60 pins of real cadavers, artificial models or samples, X-ray, MRI and CT scans. You have to recognise what is the structure, is it paired (if it is, you have to state which side is it). Total of 60pins, it's divided into 3 dissection rooms, with the first section of 20 pins are called basic pins. Basic pins are basic anatomical structures which should be know to every MD. To pass, we have to have 36 points for basic pin (which mean you only can lose 2 pins in the first section), and total of 76 points to pass the practical exam.

MCQ exam, 120 questions, to pass 76.

*we have to passed both to pass our finals, either one you fail = FAIL =)

Result came out after our MCQ test in the evening, posted on the anatomy website.
So how tak taat did?
Passed the pins, MCQ lack of 3 points = Fail.

First reaction that ppl will say when you fail? Don't be sad.
But my reaction? Well I can't say I'm completely undisturbed by it or not feeling sad at all. Just Blank. =) I did what I could within one week time prep for it. It's not like I'm slacking and sleeping, cramping everything I could last minute. Last minute just doesn't work for me.

What makes me feel really worse is I already bought my tickets back home. I need to change my flight dates to sit for the anatomy retake. I'm glad that I can change the dates with additional charges less than what I expected and worry most. I learn my lesson, don't gamble and take the risk =) look... it's 3 points lacking = fail. Might disappoint parents and family, well... really sorry =/

The night after exam, I wish my tear glands are working. Unfortunately, they aren't =). Nothing to be blame about. Some people will feel ashamed, disappointed, care about what ppl will say and think of them, ...etc. Seriously, tak taat (chillie/ me) just don't have that effort to think of that.. LOL... I'm happy for those who passed and can go home!!! U don't have to be sad with me, seriously... haha we are grown ups.. XD

So yea...
I'm not blogging in a sad mood, no. I hold up too much of my emotions in the past, that I don't burst or release like everyone else that easily anymore. I know it's bad, I'm learning. It's difficult to melt a heart which have already been harden, to train to be bold and strong to move on..

the point of me blogging now is,
I already did my best for this exam. Of course, there are many things that I didn't completed in my prep list for final previously. Within that limited amount of time, being a slow and bad reader to being able to read hundreds and hundreds of pages, I did my best and what I could.

Compare to my past lazy slacking tak taat behavior, I have improved.
only... it's not enough... I need to do better, continue to work harder and improve myself to be a better student and a doctor to be if this is what I should be.
I don't wanna say to myself
to fail is to live, to live is to learn, it's just luck or it's just exams, I'm smart or i'm a loser, don't be sad or angry anymore, I've sin and this is discipline.

but I still hold on to and believe that every action there's always consequences, whether it's a blessing or discipline. Don't give up, move on even more when it's tough. I still praised God, I still thank Him in bringing me so far.

I still have histology final exam in one week time again. I need so much more effort and confidence to not be affected so much by anatomy.

p/s: for some ppl, anatomy or med course is just a piece of cake. Well, good for you and be grateful. =) Be a good med student and doctor in future. Me? I'm still learning..

Episode #89: Boże Ciało

2010-06-04T04:05:00.012+08:00

Boże Ciało. It means "Body of Christ", also known as Corpus Christi in Latin.
One of the top 5 holy days in Poland. It is celebrated in Catholic churches here.

To know more about it, click here or here.

Kaylin brought me to one of the local Catholic church in Stokłosy where there will be procession towards 4 check points around this town. We reached 45mins earlier outside the church, before every Poles gather and the place is full of people.

While waiting for the procession to begin, you can hear solemn prayers and hymns in Polish (which obviously my brain just refused to analyse what they're talking about... although I should =p) and repeated by believers. After a while, young and old will knelt down and pray, and the cycle repeated several times.

Next, young boys with white robes, holding a large prayer rosary at the front of the line followed by another group of 5-6 holding ribbons attached to a small pillow with Jesus or Mary's face on it hold by a boy. Next followed by sisters guiding and teaching young girls with white robes, holding a basket of flower petals lining in 2 rows......continued with diff groups of ppl holding candles, torches, swinging the thuribles and then the canopy, someone holding the Eucharist with 2 ppl standing side by side supporting the elbow joints...=p
honestly I don't really know the special significance and symbolism to all of these things, hope I can give in a better account next time.

What really captures me was when the procession began, you will be amazed by the number of people and the crowd of believers walking, following behind the Eucharist. When they reached the check points, there will be benediction, choirs will sing hymns or prayer. After that, all of them will knelt down and pray, and then they will moved on to the next 3 check points.
I couldn't stop thinking and asking God, "Is this what You want to God? does this pleases You?"

Maybe there'll be some among them who are doing it out of obligation, by obeying the law. For those who really have a heart and desire to have a personal relationship with Him, God bless them and draw close to them. The wooden Cross with small tree branches on each side are the check points. After the prayer and moving on to the next checkpoint, some of them will pluck some of the tree branches as a symbol for good luck.

Following the crowd and joining the procession for me was seriously THE FIRST TIME.... LOL.. THE most significant thing? I bet I'm pretty easily spotted. Not a Polish, different skin colour, and taking snapshots during the procession. So... yea felt a bit uncomfortable.. =) still, it's really a good chance to know about Polish culture. Poland, main religion, Roman Catholic, 89.8% (about 75% practicing). It's really SOMETHING.

Roman Catholic... my knowledge about it, less than 20%
living in a nation who believes in True living God, yet with submission to law and religious tradition, not knowing how many truly knows Him as personal Lord and Saviour, Father... who really have a heart that love Him back even when He first love us. That... remains a question, which applies to all of us, everyday.

p/s: while waiting in front of the church, walking through the procession, I was thinking of having a praise and worship concert, =p with music praising Him, hands lifted to worship Him and dancing with joy. When seeing ppl kneeling down in prayer, I thought about speaking in tongues, kneeling down, face down crying out for Him. Let's not just think, but pray about it. =)

Thank you Kaylin for your camera. ;)

To view more photos on Boże Ciało, click here
or go youtube and you will watch recorded 2010 Boże Ciało.

Episode #88: If I am

2010-05-25T02:48:00.005+08:00

If I am
By Nine days

So you're standing on a ledge,
It looks like you might fall
So far down,
Or maybe you were thinking about jumping
Now you could have it all,
If you learned a little patience
For though I cannot fly,
I'm not content to crawl
So give me a little credit,
Have in me a little faith
I want to be with you forever,
If tomorrow's not too late

But it's always too late when you've got nothing
So you say
But you should never let the sun set on tomorrow,
Before the sun rises today

If I am
Another waste of everything you dreamed of,
I will let you down
If I am
Only here to watch you as you suffer,
I will let you down

So you're walking on the edge,
And you wait your turn to fall
But you're so far gone,
That you don't see the hands upheld to catch you
And you could find the fault,
In the heart that you've been handed
For though you cannot fly,
You're not content to crawl

And it's always too late when you've got nothing
So you say
But you should never let the sun set on tomorrow,
Before the sun rises

If I am
Another waste of everything you hoped for,
I will let you down
If I am
Only here to watch you as you suffer,
I will let you down

So you're standing on a ledge,
It looks like you might fall

If I am
Another waste of everything you dreamed of,
I will let you down
If I am
Only here to watch you as you suffer,
I will let you down

The answers we find,
Are never what we had in mind
So we make it up as we go along
You don't talk of dreams, I won't mention tomorrow
And we won't make those promises that we can't keep

I will never leave you
I will not let you down
I will never leave you
I will not let you down

----------------------------------------------------

really like this song,
enjoy =)
thanks for chilling by...
will update about me in 2 weeks time.

Episode #87: Spread the flame =)

2010-05-10T06:58:00.004+08:00

I Wanna Grow Old With You

The first time that I saw you
You were sitting at the table
Coming up to you
Begin this story of me and you

Day by day we grew closer
And now God gave us forever

You know that I'll be here for you
That is true
Even though there'll be ups and downs
But a promise I make

My love, I will be here for you
That is true
Teardrops and heartaches will come and go
But a promise I make
Is to grow old with you

Waking up to a smile everyday
Cherishing these moments in every way
50 years even from now, baby
I'll still be here, smiling back at you

Looking where we've been and now
At last we stand here making true love's vow

Sorry if I forget to kiss you, hold your hand
Sometimes we'll do the things we don't understand
But from the bottom of my heart
This promise I make to you

p/s: this song deserved to be made known and spread to others, I'm spreading the flame of love =) It's a beautiful song, great job friend. Amen.

Episode #86: Thoughts...

2010-05-09T19:02:00.006+08:00

By fellizar here

Many thoughts when I'm not in a blogging mood, and when I finally choose to log in and blog, my thoughts are gone =) =)

Exams coming up leads to Finals for my first year med. So the whole month of May and June will be battling with reading, studying, and more MORE MORE!!! I really really miss Malaysia, everything... from friends, family, food, festival, cinema, mamak...... Hope I can get into serious mood and make sure I pass all my exams and Finals, then my plane ticket won't be wasted.

Recently someone told me that he realised that he is an introvert (totally NOT!!), I've tried to convinced him and shared different perspective of thinking, trying to make him think and reflect to check with himself. Not everyone has the ability to trigger someone else to think out of the box, or.. the ability to think out of the box. So the funny thing is... I pissed myself off......talking so much and in the end, nothing is done except anger burned within me at that moment.. (Hillarious right?)

I went back, not feeling angry towards the person, but towards the thoughts and definitely Satan who battles our minds, constantly give false truths, doubts, regrets for us to keep us down, to press us down. I search the meaning of introversion and find is there such thing as person who is sociable and hide one's thoughts and actually an introvert. I know that some of you will think that ppl who likes to be alone, antisocial or quiet maybe introvert, but very often we may have false impression and also stigmatized certain behaviour of someone on our own =)

introvert = someone who gets their energy from themselves
extravert = someone who gets their energy from others

definition by Myers-Briggs Type Indicator. More studies on that can click here.

If you want to research more on that, go ahead. =)

What i do found out is I am an introvert too. =)
Ain't that even more funny when an introvert tries to encourage another introvert that he/ she is not an introvert?

I think all of us do have areas of being an introvert, and areas where we stand out and being an extrovert. But my point is.... DOES IT really MATTER?? God give us different gifts and build us up in different environment and family background, our character is shaped slowly without us knowing it is already growing =) We can't possibly hoping everyone to be A, or be B... A have to work with B and C and ......then only alphabetical orders exist and then we are able to form a word and then sentences, then the greatest story can be read. =)

The thought of me being an introvert after getting positive point markers from different articles about it, kind of disturbs me. "If I'm an introvert, if I'm always thinking about myself, why do I still boast about how I want to care for others, being an encourager, a listener, or even want to be a doctor?? why does all these things contradicts each other?"

Then I only have one answer "God still love me for who I am and not who I want to be." From this answer, I realized why sometimes what I think or do contradicts, and why sometimes my heart desires and actions aligned... "He changed me." Don't get me wrong, I mean that I am changed by His love. How God's unconditional love, how He taught me to love one another as I love myself, to being busy and complaining to putting your thoughts into action, learning to be available to ppl who needs an encourager and a listener.

Even a part of me maybe self-centered or don't even know how to love, still an introvert,
it doesn't mean I can't shine for His glory and reflect what God's love is like.
Being an introvert doesn't mean you are weirdo and should change, you still can reach to other introverts about Christ died for our sins because He first love you. Being an introvert doesn't mean you can't get out of your comfort zone to be an outspoken person.

A few famous ppl who are introverts:
-Albert Einstein, physicist
-Thomas Edison, inventor
-David Letterman, host of the David Letterman Show
-Clint Eastwood, actor/director
-Harrison Ford, actor
-Tom Hanks, actor
-Meg Ryan, actress
-Joan Allen, actress
-Christina Aguilera, singer
-Abraham Lincoln, 16th president
-William, Prince of Wales

(no idea if the source is reliable but got it from here.)

Episode #85: Stand Amazed

2010-04-11T06:58:00.003+08:00

33 Miles - Stand Amazed

I don't really know how long forever is
But that's how long I'm gonna give my life
Everything I face, it tries to tear me down
No I won't back away from the sacrifice
I won't forget what you're love means to me
You're always there to light my way

(Chorus)
When all the lights go down and the world is quiet
No one is around
I wanna be the same man that will serve you then
Like I serve you now
That my convictions never change
O let my need for you remain
As real as the moment I was saved
I will always stand amazed

Sometimes my heart desires such selfish things
When the moment comes help me to trust
Something better that you have for me
If I could just hold on to you enough
I won't forget what you're love means to me
You're always there to light my way

(Chorus)

You will be my strength when I am weak
When I wanna give in and not turn the other cheek
Let this be the prayer that I speak
That I speak

p/s: special thanks to letssingit.com for lyrics

Episode #84: 20th Birthday in Poland

2010-04-11T03:17:00.012+08:00

28/03/2010, Sunday

My birthday practically started 27/3 evening, receiving facebook birthday wishes posted on my wall. It's my first time receiving them ;) as I just got fb account not long ago... For me, the best present that I always cherish is definitely words and encouragement written by people =) I actually kept notes, letters, bookmarks given by friends all these years.. haha.. So I spend like hours reading facebook birthday wishes...

no "sabo" when clock hits 12am... HAHAHAHA!! I stayed up till like 4am to finish some of my studies and schoolwork so that I can get a time off on my birthday (eventhough didn't clear 100%, at least some were done.. hehe)

Pałac na Wodzie, also called the Łazienki Palace (Pałac Łazienkowski)

Morning, picnic outing with Malaysian friends of my batch at Park łazienkowski where monument of Fryderyk Chopin is. Eventhough the wind is strong, it's rather cold day, we had a great time hanging around together =) Most of the girls helped in preparing the food and drinks for 20+ ppl a day before our outing. A few MARA friends joined us too, my roommate Asma went to find them as the park is very big, she has to escort them to our secret spot. XD..
the funniest thing was they all kept denying that the picnic was an outing and not for my birthday celebration the whole time...LOL...

Suddenly, Asma ran to me, removed my spectacles, Syaza closed my eyes.....

I heard someone speaking in english... "Oh gosh, who's there?? what's happening....It can't be my group mates are here too right??" Fortunately.... no... haha.... only a great buddy half-Polish and half-Hungarian who lives in Austria, Nastassja Miklos, came and she baked a birthday sponge cake for me. =) don't know what to say besides "Thank you so much guys..." and bow... Lmou.. It was the sweetest and most touching birthday celebration I've ever had...

some photos taken by Shahida. As you can see, the budding of flowers marked the beginning of spring!!! that's why the park may look bit dull and flowerless... Really cute scene where the small boy was chasing after the squirrel.

after nice outing,
we headed back to the dorms. Since it was a nice day, the girls decided to take some snapshots at the playground near our dorm. (kononnya....)

walked up the small "hill", everybody got ready in position... 1,2.3!!!! unexpected... Asma, beloved roommate, poured a packet of flour at me.. well... "nice one Asma.." I said followed by Tom & Jerry endless chasing around the playground.

It's like I'm evaporating..

Evening, home group church at Nats's place (Nastassja).
Another first time happen here, receiving a flower, yellow turnip from Chelsea ;)
It's another sweet thing that happened... LOL.. we had a great sharing and fellowship in home group, celebrated with family in Christ with polish birthday song "Sto Lat". I had like 3rd birthday cake here (2 cakes in the morning). Unfortunately, no photos to upload here...

Next thing?
took metro train, ran to senior's house, my chinese Malaysians, Taiwanese gang. I was late for like an hour when I finally reached there. Opps... it's really touching when we had a homey style chinese dinner, just the 5 of us (just one more friend missing).

Hwei Teng and Ting were holding candles and a mini plate of a cookie (whip cream top) and heart shape candle with Happy birthday written on it. It's super funny and cute..
3 wishes before blowing the candle, I actually followed Ting's birthday wishes (we celebrated his a week before mine), 1- 世界太平, 2- all pass exams and finals, 3- 朋友和家人身体健康
haha Lame right?

After dinner,
the real cake appear =) with 2 super cute horse candles... and cookies baked by Geetha and Hwei Teng. This time I make a wish of the 5 of us, our friendship last at least 6 years... =) well, I don't really make like earnest and desperate birthday wishes for my own, so yeap that's what I thought of at that time =) hope I will make an effort to keep it.

my 4th birthday cake

From Top Left clockwise: Ting, Hwei Teng, Geetha, Ray

To mark the end of 28/03, I'm so tired and I'm afraid of traveling back to dorm alone midnight, I crashed at their place till the next morning. =)

Birthday presents and my new family members photos.
well the junk foods initially were supposed to be eaten during our picnic outing, LOL... ended up they became my birthday presents...

a BIG THANK YOU,
to all who send me messages from Malaysia, India, Czech Republic and phone call from tak taat popo, prepare food and drinks for the picnic outings, cakes, presents, your time, facebook messages and wall posts. Thank you for showing me love and care, that tell me I am not alone.

This is not a post for showing off how popular or great party I had, but remembrance and thanksgiving to all who spend time and effort accompanying me on my 20th birthday.

Last but not least,
THANK YOU & big hug to mummy
for raising me and taking care of me for 20 years.. I'm grateful that i'm still alive, fed well, and growing strong. Love you. :)

THANK YOU my God, Jesus Christ
for all the blessings, creating me and loving me for who I am, just as I am, and not who I want to be. Thank You for You never leave me, and never forsake me.

To all who are born 28/03
Happy Birthday!!
You are fearfully and wonderfully made this day.
Give thanks...

p/s: mind my english grammar, it's been a long time since I blog. My bad... will keep it up slowly...

lots of love,

chill-k

Episode #83: Everytime I Breathe

2010-03-16T05:33:00.008+08:00

Big Daddy Weave - Every Time I Breathe

I am sure
All of heaven's heard me cry,
as I tell You all the reasons why
this life is just too hard.

But day by day,
without fail, I'm finding
everything I need,
In everything that You are...
to me.

Every time I breathe,
You seem a little bit closer
I never wanna leave
I wanna stay in Your warm embrace
Oh, basking in
the glory shining from Your face. And...

Every time I get another
glimpse at Your heart,
I realize it's true...
That You are so marvelous, God.
And I am so in love with You!
Yeah, so in love with You...

Now how could I,
after knowing One so great,
respond to You in any way
that's less than all I have to give?

But by Your grace,
I wanna love You not with what I say,
But every day,
In the way that my life is lived

Every time I breathe,
You seem a little bit closer
I never wanna leave
I wanna stay in Your warm embrace
Oh, basking in
the glory shining from Your face. And...

Every time I get another
glimpse at Your heart,
I realize it's true
That You are so marvelous, God.
And I am so in love with You!

Wrapped in Your mercy,
I wanna live
And never leave
I am held by how humble,
yet overwhelmed by Your majesty

Captured by grace,
Now I'm finding
I am free
You are marvelous, God
And knowing You is everything

Every time I breathe,
You seem a little bit closer.
I never wanna leave
I wanna stay in Your warm embrace
Oh, basking in
the glory shining from Your face. And...

Every time I get another
glimpse at Your heart,
I realize it's true
That You are so marvelous, God.
And I am so in love with You!
Yeah, so in love with You!
I'm so in love with You!

photo taken from my winter break trip to Zakopane

I'm inspired recently...
Friend of mine shared,
everyone who walk passes you everyday,
you might not even realized their presence,
what they are thinking,
about their job, worries, appointment, struggles, studies..etc
but imagine that we are seeing what our God sees,
what are their purpose in life,
how God is moving their hearts in each lives...

I'm blown away by us seeing what He sees and feeling what He feels,
we are His children when we believe in Him.

sorry I couldn't write more often than I used to,
but if you do wanna catch up with me,
email me =) I'll reply you asap.

I will be back Malaysia 27 July and back Warsaw 23 September 2010.
It's a commitment that I'm not going back Poland between these dates for a Final retake.
I'm gonna do my best. miss home, miss family, miss YC, miss you!!
Pray this song speaks to you in a very speacial way.
God bless you.

Episode #82 : Krakow ~ Auschwitz

2010-02-07T22:05:00.003+08:00

Super duper late update... ;)
I'm not gonna explain the usual way I did last time (showing pictures and then elaborate... lol). Part of the reasons is also because it's quite a while ago.. haha...

Krakow-Auschwitz trip (25/12/09 - 28/12/09)

My first white Christmas was apparently not WHITE!! LOL... the snow melted day before Christmas, so the temperature was pretty warm around 9-10C in Krakow. I spent my Christmas traveling to Krakow instead.

To travel to Krakow, the best way is by 3 hours train ride. 5 of us from Warsaw (Kio, Hwei Teng, Geetha, Ray and me) with Hao Chii and Hoh from Krakow...

It's my first time joining seniors for a trip, and finally paying a visit to my Krakow comrades. =) I felt really happy and grateful when there were seniors picked us up and helped us with our luggage bag once we arrived at the train station. To all seniors of Krakow thanks for bringing us around and staying at your apartments.

Unlike Warsaw, Krakow is a tourist spot. Once you reached there, the atmosphere is totally different. Nice, relaxing mood instead of stressful and busy city lifestyle in Warsaw (but!!!! I still like studying in Warsaw..LOL..). Most of the old town buildings and streets were so well preserved. Surprisingly, restaurants and shops that we went can communicate in English ;)
Traditional Polish food that I tried for the first time here is pierogi (Polish dumplings with carrots/potatoes/chicken meat/turkey..etc)

Since it's Christmas, most shops and museums were closed. So we didn't do much of exploring nor learning a lot from museums and Jewish synagogues... The best places of Krakow I think were the St. Mary's church (Kosciol Mariacki), Old Town Market Square, with horse carriages during the day, and the Christmas market =)
They sell hot wine in the Christmas market, so when you are freezing cold, getting a cup of hot cup of wine is ......

oh! not forgeting the Wawel Castle, such a great view when you are outside the castle, looking down and you can see the amazing view of the river and night lights of Krakow. next to the wawel castle, Wawel Cathedral . There's also a Krakow dragon that will blow fire out of its mouth every 2-3 minutes... there's a legend of the Krakow dragon.

For me, I think I really learnt more about Polish history when we had a one day trip to Auschwitz. If anyone have a chance to travel around Poland, Auschwitz is a place that he/she should check it out. I had many of my questions about Polish history/Holocaust/World War II answered when I visit Auschwitz.

We had a great tour guide who did a great job on explaining what happened to the people who send to these concentration camps, how they felt at that time, the process and the suffering in these camps. There are rooms with displays of remaining luggage bags, tooth brushes, bowls, shoes, glasses and even combs of the victims, photos of victims with their dates of entry and death below (mostly not exceed 2weeks to 2 months)...etc..

There's one room which strike me most that even the tour guide didn't want to go into that room again, rather she stays outside while letting us have our reflection on our own when we saw with our own eyes...

Victims' belongings were sorted, stored and subsequently departed for Germany...The victims were killed in gas chambers within 30-45mins (they were lied by the Nazis that they were heading to shower room). None of their bodies were remained, their hairs were cut off, packed tightly into bags to sell and send to factories (making hair cloth). Human ashes were used as fertilizer, and for filing in nearby ponds or river beds.

...and what was that room about?
7 tons of human hairs. Hairs from the victims... These were the remains which the camp authorities had not yet managed to sell and send to factories inside Reich.

There are 3 concentration camp, and we went to tour 2 of them (Auschwitz I, Auschwitz II-Birkenau, Auschwitz III).

The last photo in my slide was a english translation monument,

"For ever let this place be a cry of despair and a warning to humanity, where the Nazis murdered about one and a half million of men, women and children, mainly Jews from various countries of Europe
Auschwitz-Birkenau
1940-1945"

p/s: some sentences above were copied from Auschwitz Birkenau Guide-Book for more accurate info. If there's any mistakes or anything more to add, please do comment below. Thank you. =)

We had a christmas dinner and also gathering with all Krakow comrades. It's really good for me to get to know all seniors and fulfilling my promise to pay a visit to Krakow, meeting the 9 of my batch friends who are studying in JU. =)

Update about my previous exam, Thank God, really praise Him for blessing me with a great Krakow trip, and passing of my Histology retake exam and Anatomy Head and Neck exam. I felt so relieved to have a 3 weeks break after all the exams. (6 more days to count down and the break will end =/ )

Late congrats to Susu (Sue Ting) for best student award in KTT. =) CONGRATS!!!! Proud of you girl!

Episode #81: Love is in the air

2009-12-31T08:49:00.003+08:00

He Ain't The Leaving Kind - Rascal Flatts

Waiting All my life lyrics - Rascal Flatts

Kind of weird for me to find a title for this post "Love is in the air".
Great songs, great music, hope you enjoy and be inspired by listening to them.

May God move you in a unique way.

I just came back from krakow trip, really tired and have tonnes of studies coming my way. I need to finish my preparations for my exams in 2 weeks time. No point regretting what's already past, but I do hope I can pull through the 2-3 coming exams.

p/s: coming post definitely updates about Krakow - Auswich Trip!

Episode #80: Old Town, Warsaw

2009-12-23T04:47:00.003+08:00

Another trip to Old Town, Warsaw just now. =)
This time, the weather was fine, good for night walk to christmas market at Old Town Square, Warsaw. Well, friend of mine told me that old town is very different during the day and night, so this is what I've got so far.. haha =)

Christmas deco along the street which leads to the Old town market square

Jesuit Church (The Church of Our Lady of Grace)

Christmas Market at Old Town Market square
not really crowded. some of the stalls are closing down since it's the last few days of "christmas fair" =p

The Warsaw Mermaid Statue with christmas season deco

Super big chair deco

Can't get great snapshots... but these are what I've got. =)
To view the 360 degree panorama of Old Town, visit http://www.warszawa.vr360.pl/

p/s: thank you Hwei Teng, my "boss" for tagging me photos in facebook and kindly lent me her camera..

Episode #79: Christmas Break

2009-12-21T10:00:00.008+08:00

Anis, Shahranee, Me, and Asma

First christmas break in Poland, waiting for my very first white christmas in Poland :)
Most of the girls and a few guys went to Prague, Czech Republic for holidays with Warsaw seniors. Well I didn't joined them due to ____, so I will stay in the dorm alone till my roommate is back on the 24th (roommate Asma btw.. haha). I will be heading for a short trip with a few seniors to Krakow, Poland during christmas till 28 or 29 Dec. Definitely will upload photos la.. haha so be patient.

weather update! well while I'm blogging right now, it's -18C outside, windchill -21C. My new bought mini heater is facing right in front of my feet, with a bowl of water to keep the air humid. LOL!! the temperature varies, it maybe highest -3C tomorrow morning and the windchill is -18C. For some of us, we care about the windchill more than the temperature. The wind is seriously the one who make your hands freeze and then you will feel the numbness and pain on your hands and feet.

Snow is here!!!! in the morning it's beautiful and when you walked back at night, you can see some shiny snow. It's reflected by the street lights =)
The fun part when there is snow.. definitely snow war!!! and making snow man!!!
too bad, I don't have photos when we were having snow war. It's crazy... The best part of throwing snow at people is.... Take a pile of snow and throw at the person's face directly!!! It's so cold!!! and the next thing was that your face will be super red just like when you got sunburn.. LOL! I couldn't make a snowman though. =/ The snow is too halus and not sticky. To make a snowman, you have to form the snow into a ball shape, and the start rolling it on the snow to make it bigger and bigger... instead of making a huge snowball to make a snowman. lol.. I tried to do that after asking Nats (friend from Austria) "Hey Nats, can you teach me how to make snowman??" haha... she laughed and showed me how to do it. Mission failed. The snowball became smaller and smaller as I rolled it, the snow is not sticky enough =)
The lame part? when you were busy making snowman, you already became a target for snow war!!

I went to old town, Warsaw with seniors at night just now. It's so cold.. to be honest my hands are really cold and numb when I'm trying to snap stable shots using Hwei Teng's (senior) camera. (trying to tahan life in Warsaw without a camera haha until next semester break =_=")

night shots from old town, Warsaw

big chrismas tree stands out at night at old town

me, Hwei Teng & big chrismas tree

definitely more photos with snow next time. Winter will end next year March / April / May? I have no idea... can you imagine??

Episode #78: While I'm waiting

2009-12-20T18:43:00.002+08:00

John Waller - While I'm waiting

I'm waiting
I'm waiting on You, Lord
And I am hopeful
I'm waiting on You, Lord
Though it is painful
But patiently, I will wait

I will move ahead, bold and confident
Taking every step in obedience
While I'm waiting
I will serve You
While I'm waiting
I will worship
While I'm waiting
I will not faint
I'll be running the race
Even while I wait

I'm waiting
I'm waiting on You, Lord
And I am peaceful
I'm waiting on You, Lord
Though it's not easy
But faithfully, I will wait
Yes, I will wait
I will serve You while I'm waiting
I will worship while I'm waiting
I will serve You while I'm waiting
I will worship while I'm waiting
I will serve you while I'm waiting
I will worship while I'm waiting on You, Lord

³⁰Even the youths shall faint and be weary, and the young men shall utterly fall;
³¹But they that wait upon the LORD shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings as eagles; they shall run, and not be weary; and they shall walk, and not faint.
Isaiah 40:30-31

Episode #77: I miss You

2009-12-11T08:28:00.002+08:00

Dear _____,

I miss Your presence. I wonder how can a mere human like me can be where I am right now without you. Without you giving me the hope, I wouldn't have learn from being crying child, a complainer, a hermit into a listener, a friend, and a person whom others can count on.

Light in me once again, the passion, my first love.
Let the small fire in my heart rekindles again and passing on small sparkles to others.
It's so hard to love others when my energy is drain out...
Love should come from you and you alone, it shouldn't be from my own strength.

I should have reflect you and your likeness naturally and requires no thinking at all...
sorry that sometimes I'm such a people person and not God-orientated instead.
I want to hear you again, and speak with wisdom and in right timing.
to encourage, to love, to care, and not to hurt, to talk nonsense, to waste time.
I wonder what image I'm living... so much to do, so much to carry...

Sorry that I even lost of words to talk with you, losing my focus easily whenever I spend time with you. Yet I know that above all else, you are there for me.
I pray I will be stronger and competent... so that when patients lives are in critical condition, I can do something, other than just watching them.

Love you,

________

Help me, Lord, to show
respect and love to others,
always mindful of the fact that
each of us is created in Your image.
May Your love shine through my life and
bring praise and honor to You
Amen.

Episode #76: The Ultimate Gift

2009-12-05T05:27:00.006+08:00

Sorry for not been updating lately =p
just lost my inspiration to write sometimes...

BUT..!

found this great movie, and I think you guys should watched it.
"The Ultimate Gift". Watch the trailer above =)

The twelve gifts :

The Gift of Work
The Gift of Problems
The Gift of Friends
The Gift of Giving
The Gift of Gratitude
The Gift of Family
The Gift of Learning
The Gift of Money
The Gift of Laughter
The Gift of a Day
The Gift of Dreams
The Gift of Love (which leads to the Ultimate Gift)

slow movie, but inspiring...

update about me,
Just finished my anatomy 2nd credit exam on Central Nervous System.
Now starting new topic on Head and Neck. Our first practical class was to learn neck limitations and regions, triangles of neck & fascies of the neck.

So once we enter dissection hall, the normal dissection tables have real cadaver sealed with the white plastic... (normally you watch in drama is black la XD...) so yea, people who donated their body as a study specimen for anatomy, but the ones that were used that day were old men.. Polish ppl. At first I feel weird and hehe a bit afraid, but when the class started and at the beginning the face were covered with cloth since we are learning only the neck region.

Weird strong smell of cadaver when you stand beside the cadaver, especially when you are in front of the head region which were exposed. So to get a better view of the parts of the neck and... not to smell the strong ...., I stand where the upper limbs or arms are. Well the eyes had been removed, so you can see empty spaces half closed by eye lids. LOL..

actually, the smell is not that bad compared to the brain which have been soaked with Formalin a.k.a formaldehyde. Even after you rinsed the brain with water, the smell is very strong and irritates your eyes too... like onions.. LOL...

yup, that's all I guess... thanks for dropping by :D

Episode #75: Reflection

2009-11-21T06:49:00.003+08:00

I'm still alive.. LOL..
I've been doing reflections as I think how I get here.
Well, you might think that I am very busy studying and being nerdy.. haha nope..
there's study, but also watching korean & japanese dramas lately. =p
Yeap, finally finished watching 2 dramas and I'm gonna stop watching too many of dramas and movies, but get back to studies.

My next anatomy credit exam will be on 1 Dec. It's about Central Nervous System =) so we need to hold the real human brain (with gloves of course!) and memorize, learn every part of human brain. There's so many things to learn and study and remember. People like me who always settle for mediocre really needs to catch up and be a good student!!

After watching Proposal Daisakusen and Boys Over Flowers (hehe...), I really cherished time spent with friends and family, high school friends and KTTians, YCians, and now Poland comrades... =)

Things that I miss...

Primary and secondary school
- training for basketball competition, wearing librarian uniform, pallas white school shoe, spend time with school friends, CF club, marching, loosing my school tie in class and after school, late for school, sleeping on student table, PE class shouting how many hits for volleyball in a large circle XD!!

KTT
- hijacking people apartments, cracking lame jokes, studying in CR, marching for Feskott, mamak time, CF, saboing and kena sabo for birthday babes XD...sleep over at tangga 7, writting encouragement notes... haha

YC
- camps, praise and worship, CGs, hanging out with friends and praying =)

I've stop journaling down everyday here, time just flies and one month has gone, and I am alive in Poland.. When I came to a point where I realized that I am a medical student now, I'm really studying in my 1st year in MUW.. @_@? Whoah~~ I actually reached this point already.. and yet I still complaining? and unhappy about small things?? I seriously need to wake up from wasting my time being unsatisfied and just allow time to pass day by day. I used to ask myself and brag about "Why do I have to study for SPM, A-levels,... why ppl can't just study straight the subject that we want to study? when can I study medicine?" and now it's like WHOAH~~ I'm studying it already? but it's anatomy, histology, medical informatics, latin, etc...

for me, I used to run away, freeze my problems by sleeping and watching dramas and movies to pass time... same goes with this time. The good thing is I know where I am now, and I should get back my focus and remember why am I in Poland, and why I choose to study this field..giving my very best to honour Him. I am nobody, coming from a background where there are no closed family members working in medical field, and memories that have left scars in me. Still I love my family and .. miss home .. =) LOL

we can't redo our past,... living with regrets is not the best solution either;
leave your burden and move on, change the future.

Character is a choice.
We may all have unique talents or gifts,
and though we cannot choose our family or upbringing.
We can however, choose the manner and attitude
we have when faced wth a challenge.
- John C. Maxwell

Episode #74: All Saints Day

2009-11-02T02:53:00.012+08:00

1st November is All Saints Day, celebrated in Poland and Catholics around the world for centuries. It's a major religious event in Poland, also known as Day of the Dead. Shops and streets nearby will be closed, and many bus rerouted as many people will visit their loved one's grave. People here will travel all the way to the cemeteries to clean the grave, light up candles and pray for their loved ones. Candles and flowers were placed there.. some were even arranged and put in a very beautiful way.

Darwis and me went together with Kaylin, a very nice and influential friend I got to know here. We followed her around as she explained some of a very well-known Polish ppl who have passed away as many candles were lit at their graves. John Mark and Kaylin were taking amazing photos before they spend time bringing us around and of course all of us captured some beautiful and amazing photos when we were there. =)

diff. types and colours of candles really bring totally diff. effects. Like the first one have ring patterns, so when it's lit, the effect is beautiful.

The Catholic Church outside the cemetry

behind the catholic church, its a link to the Catholic cemetry. On the walls are the memorials of soldiers and warriors of war. Below the cross there's actually a glass box with a skull inside that represents those who have passed away from war. Many candles are light up for them, some maybe from family and relatives, some maybe from people who prays for their warriors and heroes. =)

there's a word I think is "muzykalny", music, maybe a musician or artist.
So many candles are light up, especially for influential ppl, actress, warriors, etc..

It's so cold out there when we walked around, but looking around and seeing ppl spending time praying for their loved ones is really awesome. Walking around one of the largest cemetries in Warsaw is really a great experience for me.

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super lame picture I drew during Polish class when we were asked to draw our family, and introduce them in Polish.

;)

Episode #73: Letters From War

2009-10-15T16:38:00.002+08:00

I love Mark Schultz songs.. really meaningful and great music.
Enjoy this music video. =)

Episode #72: Snow in Autumn??!!

2009-10-15T00:49:00.005+08:00

morning 9am

morning 11.30am =)

While waiting for the tram to arrive...

miss me?? XD

one

two =)

snowing in autumn... yup2.. well from the room you will enjoy snow.. but once you have to walk to take trams for classes, you will know that it's super slippery and cold!!!! luckily I wear long john inside, if not I will freeze... like my hands... numbness.. I walk on the side of the road since less snow on the road. The bottom of my pants are all wet because of the snow. LOL...
previously weather was 5-10C, now it's 0-2C. ^^ crazy huh...

27 October is my first CREDIT test... quite scare =) hope I can pass this test.

ok for all A-levels friends!! all the best!!! little bit more! Ga Yao ^^

Episode #71: How's Li Yan in Poland?

2009-10-07T03:54:00.007+08:00

Beautiful sky =)
after passing 15 bus stops, we got down from the bus.. lol.

walking to Fashion House Outlet, to buy winter clothings

the inside of the fahion house

Shopping for winter clothing in Poland was a interesting experience for me. If you are in Malaysia, buying winter or autumn clothings like jackets and all are just from a few shops at certain places only.. In Poland crazy wei, you go Nike or Puma shop also, you will see more than 10 kinds of jackets and winter clothings in other shops as well.. and the prices are reasonable la.. 100-200 zl.. which is about the same price in rm. People like me who don't go shopping always... really don't know how to shop!! XD... so many choices of them until I didn't get anyone of the outer winter clothing, only the middle layer of insulating clothes... they will wrap themselves like layers of onion instead of wearing one thick jacket here. So, people who love shopping... this is really your moment man... haha...

Coffee House after church service,
the biggest group ever ;)

I went to ICF (International Christian Fellowship) church service here. In Poland, after church service, they will normally have coffee house. We will head to coffee shop or pizza shop and have great time of fellowship. I get to know ppl who are exchange students or students or working ppl who came from diff countries. =) Most churches here are in Polish... You have to go and search for english service. Well thanks to 2nd year JPA senior, I get to noe this english one ;) Miss YC though... haha... no more air-cond too cold here ppl!! it's cold outside instead... when you step in church, you are warmed. =)

Li Yan dressed formally. Style my hair already one la, then once you step out from the dorm...your hair will be blown by the autumn wind... in the end, =_=|| your hair got messed up again.. "the tip of my head punya hair" stands up again... swt...

Hall where we have our Immatriculation Day

You can see the photos of M.D and Prof hanging at two sides walls of the hall

Opening speech =)
notice they wear very special robe and the university flag beside him

Choir singing Polish and Latin songs in harmonics..

Immatriculation Day - special ceremony where we will get our Index booklet ( a book which used something like a report card ;) ) for first year medical student of Medical University of Warsaw. So all 1st yr Polish and English division students were present that day. Well my name is Li Yan Kew, and not Kew Li Yan here... haha... because they will call your given name follow by your family name. I nearly doze off many times when a speaker was explaining a presentation in Polish... even if you are paying attention, you wouldn't understand anyway... we just need to look at the translated in English slides. LOL... but the choir really geng man. 9-10ppl sing, the whole hall can hear their amazing harmonics and singing.

Class already started. I have to go for Polish Class, Latin class to learn Latin medical terms, Anatomy, Histology and Embryology, and medical informatics... =) Anatomy classes in dissection hall are from 5pm to 8pm. So by the time you finish your classes, it's already pitch black at night. If you are not traveling in a group (which I won't!), it will be really scary... haha what more when you are walking back when the weather is only 5C-10C cold!!!

In Warsaw, KEBAB is one of the common food here. Everywhere you will definitely find kebab shop. Subway and kebab are the common food that we take here for now since it's halal if we take tuna ( for my muslim friends) in Subway. It's cheap compared to KFC, McDonald's, Pizza Hut... not like Malaysia huh? =p

I start to adapt to life in Poland already... well used to the stares and the walking and taking trams. When the traffic light is red, you can't cross the road! if not saman 250 zl... Cars here will stop when you cross the road no matter which zebra line you are... lol. so you won't get any horns or scolding like you will have in KL. haha... I just realised that the road here are really WIDE!!! the tram road is in the middle lane, road for cars will be on the other two sides... and each road actually divided by 2 lanes. So in total (included the tram road), the road has 6 lanes!!!

yea... miss u guys, all the best k =p.

Episode #70: updates 2

2009-09-27T14:07:00.005+08:00

Make this slideshow since my family can't use facebook sometimes... =)

Settle down 50/50 already.
Just need to move on hard now... means getting the right time to chat with all of you online... and manage my time well for studies and rest as well... =)

just need few more adjustment and adapt stuff here n there...hopefully wil be fine.

well, once settle down 50/50, Warsaw is actually an awesome place to be.
I just need to open my eyes BIG BIG to see and explore what He wants me to learn and explore there.

miss you guys.. sorry if I can't chat with u for a very long time.
Take Care...

Episode #69: Updates =)

2009-09-26T06:45:00.009+08:00

Hey guys, I have arrived in Warsaw on thursday 11.30pm Malaysia time. It's evening there when we reach Warsaw, Poland. Erm... apparently I faced a lot of mini obstacles... that are not cool.

#1 - Hand carry luggage misplaced at arrivals baggage claim in London Airport

well 4 of our luggage bag I believed kena tangkap la.. that it's heavy and big, so the MAS air steward and stewardess asked us to leave at the front of entrance to the plane and they will give us bag later... Orang kampung like me thought they will keep and return to us when we get down later in London airport. Then after the long 12.5hrs, when we got off the plane, apparently even if we show our baggage tag number, they asked us to get somewhere else. So we walk back and forth terminal 3 (transit place) and terminal 5 (departure to Warsaw) for 3 hours with the JPA officer. Since I left with my backpack, so I carry it arround wherever I go... and I need to go through 3 times of security check. =/ not cool okay.

So... the incident happen because... of communication problem.. They thought we are taking direct flight to London, but actually we are transiting at London to Warsaw. For transit (flight connection, you don't have to pass by imigresen, straight go to terminal using a special transit bus. In the end we have to go the longest way, pass the imigresen in London as first time student, line up for almost an hour. Really thank my fellow comrades that are waiting for us at the departure area and JPA officers who helped us a lot.

#2 wrong shoes

In Poland, you have to walk a lot and most of the time you will be walking to catch the tram, metro bus and underground "passages". Walk walk and walk.. so getting the right shoe really is very important. Before reaching Warsaw, I'm wearing formal shoes... really painful tapak kaki.. very suan.. then orientation briefing I wore my converse shoe... got blisters at the sides of my feet and the back of the heels skins nearly peel off wei.. luckily just reddish... my converse shoes still very hard and new, so it's realy painful la when you need to walk a lot.

#3 culture shock

When we reach Warsaw, I really feel very weird. We arrive at our hostel at night, the streets and the buildings at night are... scary for me. It's like playing skateboard games where it's night or some spooky places you seen in movies.. lol... then orientation briefing, well... as talkative and sociable I am, this is a totally different environment. It's hard for me to chat with the guai lo.. as they speak up really well, and the way they communicate in the american english is... erm,... I'm not used to it la... as much as the guai lo at one clump, so are we as the biggest group of students from Malaysia. Plus we are so tired, some of us are really quiet.

Apparently we heard that sometimes ppl will have the impression that Asians are very quiet and don't like to socialise, more like clicking with own ppl. So we tried to break that ice, but dumn.. we are so tired, so... some of us just save our energy and opportunity for the next time. =)

In Warsaw, most people speak polish and not english... even road signs, shop names and all are in Polish. Well dunno why but I find that even when you node or smile at them, they will just stare at you in a very weird way... some even stare at you like you really "tak jui" them . =_=|| maybe because there's 17 of us, and we travel in a large group... so yea.. it's a bit weird. We really thank the seniors for helping us out a lot..

#4 Eco- Friendly

2 scenarios:
a) You order fast food or any food in the mall where you will be given tray and the food on it. After you makan, you have to throw all your food waste in the garbage bin, clean up the tables and place the tray at the right spot.

b) You go to supermarket like Carrefour to shop for groceries. You will not be given any plastic bags.. you have to bring your own paper bags or bags to keep all the stuff you bought. Well we can buy paper bags from the supermarket and reuse it everytime =) Sometimes if you see ppl bringing trolley bags or even luggage bags... not necessary they are travellers... they maybe just going for mega shopping.

#5 gazowana and niegazowana

what's that? =)
if you want to drink water, you have to look for niegazowana... which means normal mineral water. Gazowana is "gassy" water, taste something like soda water. Imagine is you wanna drink Redoxon and you use gazowana water.. it'll be so weird.. haha...there're other types, but well... we dun really know how to read the Polish language yet.

#6 limited time to settle down

Class starts Monday. =/ with many many books and lab coat, gloves need to buy. We onli have 3 days to learn everything before the class starts. Our hostel use ethernet cables for internet, luckily my Mac can receive wireless... can save time sometimes... From hostel to my uni requires 45 minutes (if you want to be early), Transfering trams, walk, take bus, all... we really need to pick it up too... sigh...

The funny thing is we got left behond at the main building of the uni, which we don't really know how to head back to our hostel. So we have to received sms from senior and the only information was the station "plac zwyciestwa" if not mistaken..=) and metro bus number 175 or 157. Cramp legs with blisters and plus bcoz I'm too tired the day before when I arrive at Warsaw, my body is a bit heaty and tired. Basically I'm not feeling well for 2 days.

We don't have a Warsaw map yet. So 17 of us ask ppl for directions (only if they noe how to speak english... ) hijack bus 175 and then pay attention to the map on bus. Luckily every bus station have labels that we can check. "Szpital" = HOSPITAL!! Thank God that we found our way back to the Centrum, where we can take tram back to our hostel.

#7 can't call home, only sms.. plus 6 hours behind Malaysia time

Tambah beban lagi, I couldn't contact my family, only can rely on sms. It's 6 hours behind Malaysia time, so let's say if I want to chat with my parents at 12pm Malaysia, it's 6am Poland time. not cool...

So yea.. I really feeling not comfortable here, facing many small yet frus punya problems... plus class starting next mon. Wearing the uncomfortable shoes and want to save moey at the same time? sigh... The only thing that pushes me on, just left medicine course... if I can't connect with that... then I'm really in trouble. Poland is a very beautiful and nice place actually, it's just that for me, it feels weird... before I can adapt to it.. my course is already started.

Hope you guys are doing fine.
Pictures upload at FB. need to catch some sleep, to get charge up.
Lots of love,

FROM ME.

Episode #68: Emofyed =)

2009-09-21T00:30:00.005+08:00

yup2, a bit of songs.. =p I really got to settle my heart right, and be couragous to move on.

Today marks the end of all the farewells... KTTians, High school friends, family, YCians and YPFers.. haha...yup... glad I manage to bid all goodbyes...

just read back my blog post. =) awesome... haha.. perasannye... but yea.. I've grown a lot...

Hope you enjoy the musics...God Bless U.

Episode #67: I feel like ...

2009-09-19T03:38:00.004+08:00

erm... missing friends already.. family a bit la.. haven't yet. 'coz farewell party with family is later at night.. LOL...

I went out for brunch with Gloria, Carissa and Wei-Jan today. Great time of catching up and chating about us.. haha. It's my first and last time outing with Gloria, so really ... sigh... =) Sorry la guys I have to leave early because of transport.. LOL. Thank you so much for coming to lepak with me. I'll wait for all your GOOD NEWS k.. must update me. =p

9.45pm I went yum cha with high school friends =) last time meeting them. Funny la seeing them teasing one another and poor Lek Lun. Haha... nevermind la.. u very nice one la. Chee Kong... err.. suddenly I also feel like you look like uncle la.. hahaha.. but nevermind... it's not entirely a bad thing =) balance ma...with all of us.. hahahaa...

In the end I can't make it again for a movie with the gang (Cing Yee, Sin May, Su Pei, Chee Kong, Yong Shen, Lek Lun, Xiao V), so I went back with Xiao V where she send her family home after their supper and hanging around with us for a while too...^^ Then suddenly talking to Xiao V in the car, I felt like catching up with her... So there we go, stop by Station 1 for 2nd round yum cha... Chatting about everyone =) before I leave. NOT the BAD things la k, I focus more about everyone la... lol...what else?

Oh my?! I asked random question about how's everyone's spm result.. LOL... coz that time, I'm in Sarawak mission trip. Little did I know that actually not many and only a few ppl got A2 for chinese. Most actually get a B3 for chinese.. Oh, and all these while I thought many of us got A2 since poor, weak chinese punya Li Yan also can get A2, sure they all pass well one la.. =) Until now, I still not conviced lo, I think I go find the 2008 punye Sentosa Cahaya la.. then I can see. If really only me and a few more... then I really have to give God all the glory!!! I took it for granted... summore I thought that the standard was lower for our year... LOLx..

How on EARTH li yan can get A2? luck??
luck bring me to JPA and A-levels and Poland? Are u sure just luck and hardwork?
God bring me through all these for a purpose. I will give thanks and say it's Him who open doors that nobody can shut and shut doors that no one can open. So guys, keep pressing on, I will pray for you guys so that you will know very soon where you are heading. Don't ever say that you don't know.... seek it out and God will show you. =) for He created you and love you... for you are Wonderfully and Beautifuly made.

So ended up until 1.30am baru balik rumah.. sorry la Cing Yee and all, I didn't know I will end up late also. Everything just go random, but I think talking stuffs is better than movie la =) so if can, then talking and sitting down is good too... haha... next time in europe or london la.. XD

after reading some notes from friends.. wah.. started to be emo alr.. haha. wanna hug Xiao V just now when leaving car, but tak de.. haha... maybe if u all send me at airport la.. I definitely miss u guys...

So...
yup2
emo post... so called la.. but I really miss the 5 generations also. too bad, they dun miss me. As usual..haha...

Sorry for broken english, I just type what I am thinking.. for the first time, sumthing about me. =)

Episode #66: Steamboat Farewell

2009-09-14T15:39:00.023+08:00

Top: Richie, Shen Ee, Chee Kong, Choon How, Sin May, Lek Lun, Yong Shen, Kum Tat, Pin Sin
Middle: Emily, Hui Xin, Cing Yee, Su Pei, Xiao V, Si Yi, Chia Jinn, Pui Mun, Yee Ting, Hui Qi
Bottom: Sue Yen, Fui Teng, Ee Von, Kai Yunn, Li Yan, Sheryl

Date: 12 September,2009 (Saturday)

I had my steamboat farewell gathering with secondary school friends at Tasty Hot Pot Restaurant, Sri Petaling.

To all my fellow friends,
Thank you for coming, I hope you guys had a great time seeing each other after 2 years!! XD... Sorry for the lame speech.. "Please give me invitation card when you guys are getting married!!" well... first thing, you will never know la.

2ndly, who knows maybe I lost contact during my study years in Poland or some of you migrated?! LOL... So my early blessings to all singles and couples.. YEAH!!

3rdly, all the best for all ya studies..!! Hope everything sun sun li li, all pass and have great future career awaits all of you ^^

Keep in touch always, if by any chance you guys coming, just let me know, I'll welcome you and go holiday tour with u guys... haha. If I come back in between my 6 years studies also, definitely I'll try my best to catch up with u guys^^

I didn't know that steamboat can finish so fast...XD so some of us went behind the shoplots and hunt for desserts...2nd round =) some of them went for a movie instead. haha...
Saturday mah...

Lame lo... eating inside the dessert shop, then suddenly my friends start singing 2010-2013 early Happy Birthday to me =_=|| People thought it's my birthday that day man... Then Hui Xin request for more than 500 words farewell letter.. LOL.. coz Vin Nie farewell letter for Hui Xin arrive by manual pos lady Su Pei! =p Hopefully la har.. I can write to all of ya before I go Poland.

Well... random Fui Teng say, "Ooi go find Shi Yeong yum cha lo..". So we called up Shi Yeong, and head to the hawker stalls nearby church. Later, Huei Min joined in also after a 5 minutes time limit (which drag to 10 mins ++ la) to reach.. so random lo.. but all thanks to Fui Teng and Shi Yeong eating chu cheung fun, can catch up with all 3 of them la.. XD

3 rounds of farewell in one day!!

p/s: To all who can't attend =) no worries, I'll miss all of you and I know that you guys are busy with assignments and upcoming exams, so it's okay...LOL. keep in touch through FB or email and all the best!

Episode #65

2009-09-08T12:52:00.004+08:00

Ladies and Gentlemen,
I present to u...

Converse Shoe - Jack Purcell

=) =)

Awesome!! my new shoe...leather shoe, so I just need to wipe and not wash them. (It's brown and white not black and white k) I miss my Nike shoe though.. the one that was bitten by my grandpa's golden shepherd puppies during Mothers' Day Celebration. Sigh...

Got almost all my stuffs already except... MY LAPTOP...lol
I don't like packing stuffs, so "ma fan". Leaving Malaysia is not so easy and cool for me.
1) I miss "tai chao" with all the Hokkien Mee, Lo Mee, Xing Chou Mi, etc for supper XD
2) Pau, zhu cheung fun, dim sum, Egg Tart, Curry puff, Nasi Lemak! Roti Canai, Tosei, Roti Tisu, Cheese Naan.
3) YC, church, home, friends.......

Kinda weird, 2/3 of my list are food. well fed Li Yan. hahaha...
I'm not good in doing farewell, so hopefully I can send my best farewell wishes to all before my 15 days countdown ends....

will have a better update next time =p

Episode #64: Be My Everything

2009-08-31T23:12:00.003+08:00

Episode #63: Photos mou??

2009-08-24T21:51:00.005+08:00

Photos taken recently =)

First of all, definitely the farewell gathering with Lin Xin and Sentosa gang.

We didn’t know that the place Lin Xin plan to go was closed down. So we can’t find that steamboat restaurant. So hilarious… we ended up having our dinner in Star Village. Great time..

Pre-departure briefing, CF election, outing with Poland and Czech bound girls and outing with my sister and her Singaporean friends.

p/s: I definitely get a good camera after my 1^st sem in my studies. Desperately want to take good pictures with good quality … =)

Episode #62: Change?? Can.

2009-08-17T00:33:00.006+08:00

taken from http://mystockvoice.wordpress.com

It's August month!! I've been really challenged lately thinking about Malaysia, the nation of Malaysia and me myself being a part of the nation, Malaysian. After coming back from BTN camp, it stirred my heart every time when I think about the country; study together with diff. groups of people from diff. states, religions and culture really amazed me... I have to admit that they are my first Malay, Indians, Sabahan and Sarawakian friends whom I truly cherished the friendship. It meant a lot to me...

For past 2 Sundays, YC been sharing about "Malaysia mou?". I grasped the importance of us to know that we can make a difference in our country. Change? Possible if we are the ones who are going to make a stand and say "I will do it".

Whether we like politics or not, (which I don't really bother reading and knowing about last time, it's just seems pointless for me to know what they are arguing anf fighting for... the "adults stuff") politics is directly affecting your life. It's related.
If you go to early market, hawker stalls, shopping malls, school, workplace and even at home, you will hear people talking about politics. Complaining, angry or dissapointed about things happenning in their lives and the country... diff. aspects of it. There's just so much to talk about.

Some of us who are capable of studying and living overseas will think of "the grass is always greener on the other side of the fence". Even I do so often.. who doesn't want to live an easy and comfortable life? =) It hit me when the speaker shared that when he checked with himself thinking about working and staying overseas, he realised that most of the reasons are self-centered and selfish motives. Well, I couldn't agree more. Come to think about it, if everyone of us just leave the country like that what will happen to the Malaysia, your birth place? Who will remain here to change the corruption or injustice or for the better?

Whether we can accept it or not, God wants us to be born in this country at such a time as this. You can only do what you can do for Malaysia because you are wired by God that way. I like the way how the speaker puts his heart and attitude upright for God and chose to stand for a change.

Instead of Angry, it turned into Passion.
Complain, turned into pouring out and giving in ideas to change what is said that it couldn't be done
Rebellious, turned into courage and being strong in diff. circumstances.
Cursing, turned into fasting and praying.

If you are 21 and above, register as legal voters as Malaysians.
Read this on "Malaysian voters should know"
To take ownership of our country, a place where God chose us to be born here and live here for a purpose.

For me, I realized that God have placed in me the heart for the nation. The heaviness feeling when I think about what is happening and who is around me. I may struggle sometimes to not judge and criticize people that I don't like, but it really challenged me when I think of praying for them instead of cursing them. =)

²⁹"The most important one," answered Jesus, "is this: 'Hear, O Israel, the Lord our God, the Lord is one.³⁰Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your mind and with all your strength.³¹The second is this: 'Love your neighbor as yourself.There is no commandment greater than these."
- Mark 12:29-31 (NIV)

I may not be involve in politics for now, but as a medical student to be and maybe future doctor, I felt that I really need to dare myself to dream big. I've set my heart that I am going to Poland and I will come back to Malaysia as a graduate medical student. =) To serve people in this field, interesting... I don't know what my stand is for now,... it'll be awesome to know in the time to come.

In so many diff. fields we can make a difference by making the stand that we will be the ONEs that wants a change... for the better.

Watch this video clip, God of this City - malaysia version. I got from Un. Lai Wei yesterday after YC service. =) Hope it'll stir your heart as you think of Malaysia.

I love this song, Everlasting God by Chris Tomlin.

Reminds me that I may made my plans but God directs my path. There's just a small portion of picture that I am painting... there's still so much more that I do not know about that picture. By faith and not by sight. The song explains it all that strength will rise as we wait upon the Lord, the everlasting God.

Hope this give you something to think about. Thanks for reading... LOL.

Episode #61: --blank--

2009-08-10T21:36:00.007+08:00

Video done by Mimi (also available in facebook).. Thank you!
Notice my hairstyle change from mushroom or lion head or ancient army helmet.. to.. a super short hair cut in P.D trip .. to a bit feminine me in grad nite.. LOL..
Miss you guys ALL 5

So today marks the end of decaying and rotting at home, and marks the beginning of greater things to come.

Cambridge AS ans A-levels results is out today.
Congrats to all friends for A2 results!
Never miss out!!
Congrats to all friends for AS results!
(you know who you are!! a lot congrats in fb alr.. so I no need to type out and announce all of you punya good grades! XD
.. For those who didn't get what they have expected, good or bad.. move on.. Press on for those who are studying A2 now and to my friends who have finish A2, don't give up, we got your back! Support you till the end. We all in this together!!)

I took 3 science subjects for A-lvls - Bio, Phy and Chem.
To be able to "fly" to Poland, I need to get minimum 12 points (cut-off point). [A=5, B=4, C=3]
So I got 13 points! All glory to God. I didn't expect to get all As.. I'm thankful and really grateful that I pass.

Actually I really feel --blank-- from the start....
All I ever think of and fear or nervous of is
"Lord Jesus, where do you want me to be? What's your plan for me?"
I come to a point where "If I win I will praise Him, if I lose I will still praise Him" and it doesn't really matters anymore whether I can go Poland or not. More importantly is will I graduate as a doctor and what should I do to be an ambassador for Christ! What difference will I make in wherever I am? =)

can you imagine me swinging from one thought to another?
From heading to UJ to now Warsaw application.
From IELTS test to IELTS test is over...
From worrying for AS and then now A2 results is out.
From not sure to Poland to it's not important where am I gonna study ... and now back to I pass the cut off point..
From stuck in sepang unknown KTT to now decaying at home.
From always lepaking with 6 generations to now all of them gone to India as dental students.

...
really irony of how things works in my life sometimes..most of the time actually.

I still don't know what will happen next.. but will update soon.

What could I say
What could I do
but offer this heart O God
completely to You
-We Stand, Hillsong United

Episode #60: All At Once - The Fray

2009-08-10T15:53:00.002+08:00

All At Once
by The Fray

There are certain people you just keep coming back to
She is right in front of you
You begin to wonder could you find a better one
Compared to her now she's in question

And all at once the crowd begins to sing
Sometimes the hardest thing and the right thing are the same

Maybe you want her, maybe you need her
Maybe you started to compare to someone not there

Looking for the right one you line up the world to find
Where no questions cross your mind
But she won't keep on waiting for you without a doubt
Much longer for you to sort it out

And all at once the crowd begins to sing
Sometimes the hardest thing and the right thing are the same

Maybe you want her, maybe you need her
Maybe you started to compare to someone not there
Maybe you want it, maybe you need it
Maybe it's all you're running from
Perfection will not come

And all at once the crowd begins to sing
Sometimes
We'd never know what's wrong without the pain
Sometimes the hardest thing and the right thing are the same

Maybe you want her, maybe you need her
Maybe you've started to compare to someone not there
Maybe you want it, maybe you need it
Maybe it's all you're running from
Perfection will not come

Maybe you want her, maybe you need her
Maybe you had her, maybe you lost her to another
To another

--Thought of posting up since Daphne u gave me a comment on previous post ;p--

#59:Being happy or being right?

2009-08-08T02:07:00.005+08:00

taken from here ©2009 Columbia Pictures Industries, Inc. MARVEL, and all Marvel characters including the Spider-Man, Sandman and Venom characters™ & ©2007 Marvel Characters, Inc. All Rights Reserved.

Many of us sometimes whether we realise it or not, trap in this question, "Being happy... or being right?"

Being happy doesn't mean that you can run away from the troubles that are coming your way or they already do exist. We may indulge into things that we have fun and enjoy with... maybe things, events or people. Then slowly... you found yourself happily in your safe comfort zone. Emotionally and physically, it is actually a very healthy lifestyle.. don't you think so?

Being right too do not promise you troubles will disappear and able overcome them all either. Spiderman didn't always feel good to be right and doing the crime-fighting duties, superhero saving the day thing.

"Peter Parker is finding his double life increasingly difficult. Precariously struggling to balance his crime-fighting duties with the demands of his normal life, Peter often finds his personal life taking a back seat. He loses a job, faces financial difficulties, and struggles to maintain his physics studies at Columbia University. Moreover, he has become estranged from both love interest Mary Jane and best friend Harry Osborn, and Aunt May is threatened with foreclosure."
- taken from wikipedia

"Why can't we just choose to do right and then happy at the same time?" but I guess most of the time I think doing what is right requires sacrifice. Doing right sometimes can even cause hurt and disappointment too.

For me,
I choose to do what is right and stands aligned with biblical truth if I can.
I believe that yes there's nothing wrong with being happy...but if the thing that I have chose to be happy with is not right, I believe that I will be consistently be reminded of my faults and wrong doings. Whatever things that I choose to run away or temporary silent it will sooner or later find me. We shouldn't be emotionally shaken and forget about our integrity. =)

I don't really have many points to stand for both, but of course I don't mean that we have to be grumpy and sad all the time.. no more happy and joyful smile... It only refers to certain circumstances where you are happy even if you are not doing what is right. Oh well... it's just a thought that needs to be rekindle more.

"with greater power comes greater responsibility" =) (random quotes..)

Episode #58: Back to KTT

2009-08-06T12:10:00.006+08:00

I came back to KTT --- the ONE and ONLY KTT... in Nilai--Sepang.
This time, it's not because I am going to send any friends off at KLIA, but to go for CF on wednesday. I missed CF, what's more exciting that I really want to hang around with juniors!
LOL..

Well, first thing I did once I reached there ---> scared SUSU from the back who was teaching and helping out a Poland bound junior in the library. Cool... haha...
Apparently the 1 year bound juniors were taking their mid sem exam at night. I can really feel the tense and pressure in the library where you will see ppl studying quietly and very professionally. XD

Makan dinner with bunch of ALUs!! LOL... Lame joke session began where I start asking really lame jokes , then more and morejokes just keep coming out from all the ALUs later on..

What is transformer's parent's name?
- TRANSPARENT!

What is transformer's sister's name?
-TRANSISTOR!

What is transformer's relative's name?
-TRANSLUCENT!

What is transformer doing in the railway station?
-TRANSPORTER!

What is transformer's job in overseas?
-TRANSLATOR!

So.. why transformer always late?
-TRANS.. LATE!

Can you see how far we went while enjoying our dinner at mamak? that was just a small portion of our fellowship..LOL... there're so many transformers replica punya lame Q&A session. 8 ppl sitting around a 4-sided square plastic table. Crazy... XD

Alright?! How's CF?
Amazing.. magnificent.. AWESOME!!
7.30pm all worship team ppl already there started practising for CF service which starts at 8pm, His presence was there in our midst as we joined in singing along with the songs. All chairs were already arranged and most of the ppl (10-12ppl) who were on duty for LCD projectors, music instruments.. etc.. all there ready for service! Whoa!
AMEN! Good job!

All juniors took control of CF that day, they were awesome! Only Sue Ting making announcements and Hui Fen closed in prayer! That's it! When time passed 8pm, then the seats started to be taken. The lecture hall was packed with juniors.. During P&W, we were so loud that a lecturer came up and warned us to tune down our volume as the 1 yr students were taking their exams can hear us!! amazing.. So yup.. we tuned down our music volume a little. Thank God that no red card or saman about dismiss CF is given to us after that.

Well... Susu warned me not to corrupt her beloved juniors with lame jokes!! So.. I didn't! I enjoyed knowing each and every one of them =)
We have a special guest from ACTS church, Bro David Yeow and ACTS leaders sharing on choosing a leader and building a team.

Being a leader and being part of a team!
Everyone is meant to be a leader. You are worthy because Jesus made you worthy. If Jesus can heal the sick and mend the broken hearts, so can you and so should you!
Being a leader = becoming more Christ-like!

Leadership is not a title nor position, but it is a responsibility and calling.
It's not about your appearance, your height, but it's about your heart! Heart that is righteous for Him, a heart who loves Him and honors God.

But the LORD said to Samuel, "Do not consider his appearance or his height, for I have rejected him. The LORD does not look at the things man looks at. Man looks at the outward appearance, but the LORD looks at the heart."
- 1 Samuel 16:7 (NIV)

You have to read the Word of God, you need wisdom.
We can't walk around being Christians and don't know what is in God's Word.
"If you don't have the Word of God, how do you minister to people who is in times of need?"
We need to have faith and wisdom of God. (Acts 6:3)

Surrendering ourselves to Him. We can't be leaders for Him if we do things our way. We have to do God's way and not following our own desires.

So guys.. what's your call?

"Leader" may be a very big WORD for you that will requires your commitment, but TO BE or NOT TO BE?

p/s :If you are not a believer of Christ, I strongly urge you to think it through and leave a comment of what you think choosing a leader and building a team is for you. =)

After CF and yum cha with ALUs again, then balik tidur kononnya.
I was so hyper yesterday, "hijack" Susu and Jojo's apartment. Not to mentioned cracking lame jokes again in Susu's apartment and playing the guitar. I am so noisy!! oh my... can't stop playing the guitar and talking. XD.. I felt really terribly sorry for fooling around in their apartment. Even for just one night! Can you imagine if I'm there for a week? Susu's roommate Via probably can't study in the room when I'm so =_='' not like a senior outside chatting and talking non-stop with Susu, Vee Kee and Kei Shing.

Maybe I may leave a weird and bad impression of myself, the Li Yan.. well, sorry la my friends and KTT awesome juniors.. maybe I'm just too overly excited to meet u guys. Pai seh...

To all juniors, you guys are amazing and awesome bunch of ppl! maybe more crazy and fun than the ALUs (which includes me and 1yr bound seniors too XD ) Keep rocking, be the light! Continue doing what you guys have started every morning. God Bless..

Episode #57 : I'm Diving In!!

2009-08-01T00:05:00.002+08:00

Dive by Steven Curtis Chapman

The long awaited rains
Have fallen hard upon the thirsty ground
And carved their way to where
The wild and rushing river can be found
And like the rains
I have been carried here to where the river flows yeah
My heart is racing and my knees are weak
As I walk to the edge
I know there is no turning back
Once my feet have left the ledge
And in the rush I hear a voice
Thats telling me its time to take the leap of faith
So here I go

Im diving in Im going deep in over my head I want to be
Caught in the rush lost in the flow in over my head I want to go
The rivers deep the rivers wide the rivers water is alive
So sink or swim Im diving in

There is a supernatural power
In this mighty rivers flow
It can bring the dead to life
And it can fill an empty soul
And give a heart the only thing
Worth living and worth dying for yeah
But we will never know the awesome power
Of the grace of god
Until we let ourselves get swept away
Into this holy flood
So if youll take my hand
Well close our eyes and count to three
And take the leap of faith
Come on lets go

Episode #56: Kota Kinabalu, Sabah

2009-07-24T16:47:00.003+08:00

29/06/09 - 02/07/09

1st time to KK and overnight at the airport!!
(Well we reached KK by 12am... so..XD)

Together with 10 fun, crazy and awesome ppl!
Adeline, Yu Xin, Estella, Ian, Ken Joo, Vee Szen, Fikri, Ye Ling, Ming Lee, and Darwis!

Looking from the air plane, KK looks more developed.. More houses and buildings scattered compared to Kuching's large forest area.

It's really funny when we took taxi to travel around KK, Taxi drivers sure asked this "Dari mana?"
And our only reply was "Satu Malaysia!". Most of us met when we are in KTT, I'm the only KL ppl, the rest were from Sarawak, Johor, Perak, Penang and Malacca. Noticed there's no Sabah there? All of us were first timers in KK!!

KK scenery and Mt. KK view were no doubt awesome.The sky is more cloudy and misty compared to Kuching beautiful greenery and sunset.The air in KK Park was so refreshing.. love it there..

Brave KTT warriors - Ming Lee and Ken Joo challenged themselves to climb the Mt. KK. Whereas the rest of us head to Porin Hot Spring and Marine Park the next day.

Before leaving Kinabalu National Park, we went for a short jungle tracking trail (Silau-Silau Trail), ended up our exit was Jalan Kinabalu (main road leading us back to the entrance of the National Park). LOL...Our only motivation to finish the trail was "Porin...Porin...Porin..Here we come.."

Once we arrived at Porin Hot Spring, we went for the Canopy Walk. It is a Canopy of the Menggaris Tree - the king of the tree. (Tallest, Strongest, Sturdiest tree). 400m up to the pondok that starts the Canopy Walk..
fuh~~ It was TOUGH and TIRING!! I regretted carrying my backpack all the way up and all the way down after the canopy walk. The view from the top was awesome!! The whole trail reached 1km ++ but it was satisfying. After the canopy walk, when u walk to other places the next day, ur stamina will be much better. =p
Next, the hot spring to get urself charge up and relax after the tiring walk.

On our first night at KK, we went to the Cinema after dinner.XDXD
Cathay Cineplex and GSC Cinema are opposite to each other across two-lane road. Guess what? We crossed the road for like 5-6 times back and forth just to watch ICE AGE 3 and TRANSFORMERS 2. (=_='' we are not sure which cinema is GSC without knowing that there're 2 cinemas there)

So I watched Ice Age 3 on the premier at Cathay Cineplex. The movie was super hilarious.. I can't stop laughing watching the movie. Totally salute the director and the team. Dinosaur's were so cute~~ ^^

The day, Marine Park!! Woohoo..~~
From Sutera Harbour, take a boat ride.. there we reached Manukan Island. 1st time I tried snorkeling..hehe.. pai se... and I manage to pujuk Yu Xin to go for parasailing with Ian, Ye Ling and Vee Szen. XD
Me and Adeline enjoy the wind breeze on the boat, and curi-curi snap photos of them. hahaha...
Next we head to Sapi Island. Beachview and the clear seawater totally amazed me. I can't help staring at the seawater... and the beautiful sky... and the other islands. This place is definitely the best choice for family holiday and beach lovers. ^^

p/s: This is definitely very memorable trip for Czech & Poland bound students!! I'll miss u guys... well, maybe next time.. Europe trip mou? ^^ in God's timing and His grace we will. =)

So finally I finish updating about KK and Kuching Trip. I really wanna get back to blogging about my thoughts and me.. =) not only the good but maybe emo and bad stuff as well..haha.. I am not a perfect person, neither do i wanna show myself as a perfect one.

Episode #55:Kuching, Sarawak Trip(3)

2009-07-20T16:14:00.013+08:00

26/06/09 - 29/06/09
well last post for Kuching!! Lol... XDXD

Coming to Sarawak definitely must try out Kolok mee and Laksa Sarawak!! It's intereting that the coffee shop we went was really antique. The chairs (bench) and tables looked like the ones in old railway stations.. haha.. So when ppl busy makaning laksa Sarawak, I took a pic of the tables and chairs.. XD

Kek Lapis. Another awesome food I tasted in Kuching. We have to cross the river to the other part of Kuching just to buy Kek Lapis at Kg. Gersik. Many tourists, celebrities and even the locals will go to this shop just to buy a dozen of Kek Lapis... No joke! When we were waiting for our flight to KK, we saw the next check in counter for ppl heading back to West Malaysia having this shop's Kek lapis in boxes!! LOL!! There's just so many different kinds of Kek Lapis you can try and buy from this shop. Suprisingly Fikri bought 8 and get one free.. hahaha... the picture is Tembikai (watermelon). It's really secial to see many different layers with different colours and patterns in one slice of Kek Lapis. =)

Do you know?! There're only 2 tolls in Sarawak! One is when u are crossing the river (Sg. Sarawak) to buy Kek Lapis and place where High Court, new DUN building are. LOL..u have to pay RM1.00 and the other one is when u r crossing to Brunei... (correct me if i'm wrong bout Brunei Toll haha) but ya! it's awesome.. Imagine in Puchong, Sri Petaling, KL, the number of tolls for highways are ... more than Sarawak!

Shopping for souvenirs and handicrafts definitely Gambir Street and Indian Street in Kuching Town. Well you can see the Indian mosque when you are walking along Indian Street.

walking around Kuching town, you can really see many historical buildings and the 4 diff. cats statue.. haha.. Well.. apparently..

I heard from Mimi's dad (Uncle Dajai) about how Kuching was named. It's simply because there're many cats in this place.
For Sarawak, it's started when a British guy ask the locals, "what's this place?"... and the local said, "S'rah kepada awak." which later misinterpret as Sarawak.
LOL!! I don't know how true is that, but it's cool.. I remembered asking Estella..Mm.. well she's never heard of the Sarawak one.. haha.. O_o?

Waterfront, If u've been to Kuching, u'll definitely jalan-jalan around Waterfront before. From there, you can see the Sarawak River and DUN building and Fort Margarita on the other side of the river.
Besides driving and paying the RM 1.00 toll to cross the river, you can actually take a boat ride for RM0.50 only! =)

Next stop!
Permai Rainforest Resort,
an eco-resort set in pristine Borneo rainforest located on the shores of the South China Sea, and at the foot of mystical Mount Santubong. It's a great rainforest experience if u r staying there for a day or two. Well they will stay in Tree Houses... We went there to the jungle pool and the beach. Walking through the rain forest is really relaxing surprisingly.. LOL. They have leisure activities and training activities, good for diff. age groups and individuals. This was the place where the German couple got married too..

definitely it's a must to visit Sarawak Cultural Village!!
Known as the 'Living Museum', the Cultural Village was set up to preserve and showcase Sarawak's cultural heritage. (mentioned in Tourism Malaysia website)
Bidayuh Long house, Penan Hut, Iban Long house, Orang Ulu Long house, Melanau Tall house
, Malay house and Chinese Farmhouse. Awesome! Well if u r a student and u r going to Sarawak Cultural Village, remember to bring ur student card. Then u won't have to pay RM 60 but RM 15 instead!! I'm amazed by the Mt. Santubong, you can really see a shape of a pregnant woman lying down when you look at Mt. Santubong.

So guys.. fuh~~
finally updated about Kuching trip, hope you get to know a little about Kuching by now. Sorry la I'm not a good in details and describing every places but... here's what I got so far. =)

Episode #54: Kuching,Sarawak Trip(2)

2009-07-12T00:03:00.017+08:00

Sorry guys, late update!!
Back to Kuching!!!

It's been awesome experience to visit Mimi's Kg, Kg. Emteban. First sentence we said in Iban was "Selamat Lemai", which means Good Evening. LOL...
We took picture with Un. "Rabbit", a close-relative of Mimi who is really good in Tarian Ngajat. I fell in love with Iban's Traditional food ---- Kelupis. The texture was hmm.. chewy, sweet fragrance, lovely.. (what's with Li Yan and food always anyway?? haha) It's really important to say the word "kitnik" (sounds like that la) and touch the plate of the food served when you don't want to take it.

We visited Mimi's house which is in the long house...(weird explaination) XDXD it's like a spacious and long double-storeys wei. We saw the skulls' of the enemies killed last time which were known as antu palak. Mimi's uncle then explained to us some stories and rituals to present offerings to antu palak. Those days, the number of skulls symbolised number of medals a warrior has. It was one of the important things when a girl wants to marry a guy.

p/s: Mimi correct me if I'm wrong... or if u want to share more bout it =)

After that we walked behind the long house, uncle showed us the place where Rentap first started the war with James Brooke. So cool to visit a REAL historical place ... Thanks to Mimi being our translator, we can understand uncle's sharing =). Next, lepaking time!! walked around the long houses and actually we want to explore the rubber estate ... but dumn... it was kind of far and ... ... there were bees buzzing around when we wanted to walked there. So in the end we... FLEE!!! LOL.

Teaser 3
Well apparently I'm quite fair. My neck and hands got bitten by mosquitoes when we hang around the garden and river outside of the long house. So once we walked back to the long house and fellowship with Mimi's relatives... Some of them spotted the reddish pink spots on my hands and neck. They smiled and talked to me in Iban which I couldn't understand. I think I can figure out what they're trying to say though.. haha.. so I just nod my head and smile back to them. They're really nice la~~~

During that long long journey back home, I loved the sunset and the scenary...It was beautiful~~

22/06/09 - 25/06/09

Jong's Crocodile Farm. It was my 2nd time there. Surprisingly I was scared when I went with them. LOL. Rutstein (Mimi's brother), Mimi, and Ng sometimes will scared each one of us and even the iguana there!! Haha... until it stared at us. Oh the cute ones were known as Ofters. The number of crocodiles there increased since the last time Mimi visited there.

Semenggoh Wildlife Centre.We reached there during feeding time. So the Orang Utans will come out from the forest to get food placed at the platform. There are 24 orang utans in total and all of them are semi-wild. To open a coconut, they will hit the coconut to the tree trunk until it has cracks... then they will peel off the coconut shell to get what's inside. Interesting... but it's also funny la when the workers warned us to be careful to avoid being hit by the branches or coconut shell thrown by the orang utans... sometimes maybe even "sprayed" by their urine too (not sure if its true O_o?).

What's in Kuching Town?!
Dewan Tun Abdul Razak, Muzium Entologi, Akuarium Bandaraya, Muzium Seni and Muzium Sejarah Semula Jadi. Good stuffs.. haha.. Many artifacts, swords, fossils, etnic cultures, model of different long houses, etc... If I'm not mistaken that butterfly is James Brooke butterfly. Entrance fee?? FOC!! so check out this place if u are going to Kuching.

1 more post for Kuching =) ----To be continued----

Episode #53: Kuching,Sarawak Trip(1)

2009-07-06T13:31:00.015+08:00

When I think back the decision I made to go for this trip is crazy! I took only 2 days to make this choice, and it was during A2 exams... We have to book much earlier to get Air Asia's cheap tickets.

10 days in Kuching, Sarawak!! Kind of like a farewell trip with Maddy, Ng and Ilmy who are going to study in UJ. =) Memorable. I've learned a lot about Orang Iban, Rentap, food ;p and Sarawak.

20/06/2009
strange incident 1:
A chinese guy came up to Ng and chat for a while with him. Then the guy ask if Ng can help to checked in a box which he told us that it's a water filter. During that time, my mum actually just called and reminded me not to accept any luggage bags and boxes just in case if there's drug inside or something. I turned around... and saw the guy passing the box to Ng with Rm 10 note!!! swt...
So i kept all of us in prayers...even though there was a "security checked" sticker on the box. LOL. We ask for a contact no., he gave us a water filter business card.

The guy was sitting at the front sit of Ng and Maddy again. (just in case if u didn't know, u have to sit according to ur tickets for Air Asia now) He belanja them a cup of 3 in 1 Nescafe which cost Rm 4!! When we landed safely at Kuching, we went to collect our luggage bags. We tried to search for the box, but it's gone. Same goes with the guy. Strange but anyway, at least we didn't get into trouble. =)

for 10 days we stayed at Ilmy's home sweet home =)
Mimi's (Ilmy) parents and family are very friendly, nice and loving. haha.. We felt really warm and cosy during our stay there. THANK YOU to the power of infinity!!!

After our delicious dinner, met up with Daniel!! Visited Taman Sahabat where the huge Laksamana Cheng Ho statue was. Then we head to Jalan Song yum cha.

Hillarious incident 2:
Ng saw the "5 layer Teh C Ping" ad and start talking about want to try 7 layer Teh C Ping. So everyone had a "seven-layer-Teh-C-Ping" imprint in mind. A waiter walked to our table and Mimi gave her orders...

"Ada tujuh layer Teh C Ping??" Mimi asked without realising the "TUJUH" not lima.
"Ada....
...
..
.
APA?!! TUJUH LAYER?!!?"

Looking at the waiter's shocking face, all of us laugh like crazy... ... banging the tables that we were at. People started to stare at us with strange faces... haha xp

5 layer Teh C Ping
From top!!
1) Teh
2) Cincau jelly
3) Pandan wheat grass
4) Condensed milk
5) Gula Melaka / Gula Apong

p/s : Correct me if i'm wrong Estella haha...
the ingredients must be placed in the correct order. If not everything will campur straight away. Density... Remember? XDXD

21/6/09
Mimi's parents took all of us to visit Mimi's Kg! Visited the real long houses!! It's a long long journey. Being in 4wd Prado, listening to Mimi's parents favourite love songs are memorable. During our journey, Mimi's parents told us a lot about history and Orang Ibans.

Before we reach Betong, we went to Batang Ai dam at Lubuk Antu (which means Ghost Pool =) ). Batang Ai dam is the 2nd largest dam in Sarawak. The view was awesome!!! U can't use a camera to capture the whole awesome view that u saw is just amazing. As u can see the water level is much lower due to the dry weather. That's also the place where tourists take a boat ride to reach the Batang Ai Hilton Resort, I think it'll be another beautiful place to be.

Our next stop is another awesome experience!!
Sg. Skrang -- place where Rentap fought against James Brooke and shed his blood (the way Mimi put it.. haha) We "mandi sungai" there. The water current at certain places were strong, u barelly can move against the current but being push along instead =)

----To be continue----

Episode #52: End of A-Levels!!

2009-06-28T00:27:00.010+08:00

Poland Bound Students - ALL 5 (2008/2009)

with our Bio Lecturer Mr. Addie sleeping pose ;p

12 June 2009 marked the really end of A-Levels in KTT, Sepang. We had our graduation night in Pan Pacific Hotel, KLIA. The theme for that night was TRADITIONAL. LOL!! At first I tried to avoid thinking about it since I'm scared of wearing dress and high heels.. "Uncle Hoh" especially teasing me "can't wait to see Li Yan with dress =p". It turned out to be traditional. Cut the long story short, I wore a SAREE . A big HUG and THANK YOU to Sharlyne, Yen Yiing, Lynthia, Joanna, etc. (If u have helped me, then this is for u =) ) for helping the stubborn me to find one to wear for graduation night. hahaha... I'm so conscious of my saree especially when I walked on stage, afraid that I terstep the saree and falling down the stage. In the end, I'm fine, everything went smoothly. LOL!

Couldn't believe that one year in KTT just over =)
I felt really glad that the 7-1-A3 apartment ppl still around during my graduation night.
After receiving the news that I didn't get into UJ, the more heavy feeling I have towards the 9 ppl who will be leaving the 2o of us, Malaysia end of August and next 6 years to Poland and also the Czech Bound friends. Although it's just 3 hours difference (for UJ), you don't know how busy we all be or where we are. (emo wei..haha)

So yup. Everyone looks great that night. Pictures for you to LOL? There you go!
(P/S : Sorry have to take some from FB. Thank You Ainul, Lyn, Farhanah, Ilmy for the photos! will add in more later for Indon bound friends...)

From top left clockwise: Anis, Farhanah, Lyn, Najihah, Nadiah, Shaza, Ainul, Asma, Sasha, Izureen, Aqila, Zulaikah,Adzwin, Reena, Naqlis and Aiman

From Top left clockwise: Adzwin, Nadiah, Najihah, Asma, Farhanah, Lyn, Shaza, Aqila, Ainul and Zulaikah

Adzwin and Zulaikah

Aqila and Ainul

From Top Clockwise: Krisyanth, Zuhair, Ken Joo, Ron, Bong, Evon, Amri, Estella, Ye Ling, Vee Szen, Hong Yih, Ng Ming Lee, Yu Xin, Adeline, Ian, and Fikri

From Top Clockwise: Maddy, Farhanah, Adeline, Lyn, Evon, Asma, Ye Ling, Me and Izureen

From Top Left: Reena, Ilmy, Maddy, Darwis, Ameer, Hazim, Irfan, Suresh, Safwan, Fikri, Ng Ming Lee and Aizul

Aizul and Ng Ming Lee

From Top Clockwise: Wen Lee, Mae Jane and Me

Maddy,Ilmy and Reena
Me and Lyn